Okay, so I pulled an all-nighter since I couldn't sleep. I left the computer for like an hour or so... I come back on and Baekyeon is real and all over facebook, tumblr etc etc etc... and since I WAS so "in love" with Baekhyun I freaked out, cried and will probably not get over it in a few weeks since I cringe when I look at his face.

Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike Baekyeon/Byuntae or whatever... I don't dislike Taeyeon. Actually, when I had those thoughts about Baekhyun dating a girl I really wanted it to be her. I prefer her and Baekhyun than any other girl and Baekhyun. But I don't ship it. But I did have the feeling that when SNSD released "I got a Boy", I knew that Baekhyun and Taeyeon would start dating in at least a year... It was too obvious. idek..

No, my BIGGEST OTP was Baekyeol/Chanbaek... well, there goes that unrealistic dream, lol. 

Though... on the other side I don't get why everyone who ships straight couples are like "Baekyeol (for example) isn't real! It's two guys, everyone needs to wake up! They will all marry a girl!" etc etc etc... Why are people saying that? Am I the only one getting frustrated about this? And it's not about my ships, or any other ships. It's just that... Why is it so weird that they were gay? Sure, if everyone in (for example) EXO was gay... THAT would be extremely unrealistic... but so is if everyone of them was straight, because I ain't having that . Sure, homouality in Korea isn't something accepted, but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist at all. And if we take EXO, I can say that at least 4 of them are a homoual/biual. But that's just my opinion.

Anyways, moving on to the main thing I was thinking about.

So, I'm the kind of person who gets tired of someone if I know they have a GF/BF. And that's not something I do intentionally... It just happens, idk. So I usually think they are uninteresting and I forget about them. Not like, "give up on" but more like actually don't remember they exist. I'm weird, I know. And I've been so nervous for a very long time that someone in EXO would get a GF because I do know I would get sad about it, and I did. And I knew Baekhyun would be the first and ahfdlglsf... But you know what, how immature it is for me to cry, I'm still allowed to feel sad about it, I'm still allowed to cry about it, because it's a natural feeling to have. I'm happy for them, but at the same time sad, but I'll get over it if I cry.

Still not getting to the point I'm heading... damn...

So, now that the first EXO member is confirmed dating... then I'm really not worried anymore about the rest. They can do what they want. I can't even ship anything anymore, I'm just to neautral about anything that I'm just... okay. Though, I feel it's a bit harder to write stories about Baekyeol now... it won't be as funny anymore, since you know he has a girlfriend and that Baekyeol won't ever be real. Oh well... But that's who I am when it comes to this.

But, is it only me who is this way? Anyone else? 

Oh, and I don't know about them keeping quiet about it for four months. Yeah, sure. It's their life and all that, but at the same time... They're a celebrity couple so... they can't really expect to have a private and secret relationship, right? And it just feels like they're lying to everyone, because sooner or later people will find out, even if they "wait" or whatever. But, this is also just my opinion.

Done with this stupid rant or whatever this is... idek... ah, just had to write my thoughts out.

bye