Deleting account(?)

Don't get me wrong; I'm not throwing a hissy fit and quitting AFF out of anger.

I really don't know man. 

What is the meaning of writing fanfiction when my baekris ship has sunk, my 2nd bias is off in China starting up a career as an actor, and my ultimate bias is dating one of my favourite girl group idols?

 

The whole reason I started writing was because I liked being able to imagine things about these far away perfect boys and write about them for fun. But now that perfection is crushed by reality - I don't hate them or anything because they're human and deserve everything that they want in life, but I suddenly find the whole concept of writing fanfiction really dumb. (Personal opinion! Don't be offended!)

So I think it'll be best if I just stop writing, but I really am not sure. I mean I started writing because of EXO; I started it all because I wanted an outlet for my love and obsession and imagination. 

 

But then what kept me going was the readers.

 

So now the decision is getting really tough for me. I love Baekhyun and Taeyeon and even though I'm happy for them, I've lost my purpose in writing fanfiction. I love EXO and being able to imagine; but even more than that - I love being able to write for people who appreciate and read my work.

What do you think? Give me your two cents.

Tbh I think the whole reason it's so hard for me to just leave without saying anything is because deep down, I really don't want to leave. I love you all. All the commenters, upvoters, subscribers, even you silent readers. I love you all and I love the fact that we all share common thoughts and interests and it's just so special to be able to have such a relationship. 

But what about all the baekyeol/baekris/baekchen/baekhun fics I had been planning to write in the future? What about all the romance I had lined up? The heartache will be too much I think.

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fani437 #1
I understand what you mean.
I am happy for them but
that doesn't mean you have
to leave. I really like your
writing! But if you were to
really leave, it would be
sad, but it'd be your decision.
-watermelon #2
OMG STAY PLS
I THOUGHT YOU WERE QUITTING BC OF SILENT READERS
I HAVEN'T READ YOUR PAST UPDATES YET IM SORRY I PROMISE I'LL READ THEM BUT IT'S THE 2ND WEEK OF SCHOOl, AND THE REQUIREMENTS ARE KILLING ME

I FEEL U OMG. I see your point. I mean, what's the point of doing something when it has no purpose anymore? The only thing I can say is: don't write for baekris, exo, nor the readers. Write for yourself. Write because you want to, because you like it. Once something have lost it's purpose, it becomes a burden. So be the purpose, because you can't lose yourself. (Do i even make sense)

Don't force it. As much as I would love for you to stay, everything you'll write will be meaningless if you're just forcing it.......haha I just realized that you shouldn't have done the poll.....theres 100% chance A and C will be the majority.

PS. If you need a reassurance that people actually care..then
1) Your fic is one of the lucky oc fanfics who slipped in my subscriptions.
2) I found your fic bc someone was recommending it in some shop
3) When I looked at your stories I felt so happy bc...wow i found a good author that's not ~
4) I added you as a friend. Hehe I don't add people I don't know or doesn't write well.
5) I HAD A MINI HEART ATTACK WHEN I SAW THIS. I WAS REALLY SO SAD BC OF SCHOOL AND B AND I WAS NO OH NOT U TOO.
6) I actually spent some time to comment here even though I know that it probabaly doesn't matter that much

hehe though they sound lame it's actually vip treatment in my part hehe

SO IF U HAPPEN TO THINK WE DON'T CARE.....THEN UR RIGHT BC I WOULDN'T WRITE THIS COMMENT EVEN THOUGH IM SLEEPY BC I DON'T CARE.

wat. i just reread my comment and it's like a roller coaster from serious to being caps lock all the way. O_O
Chandara61 #3
You don't need to leave!! i also feel a bit sad although baekhyun is not my ultimate bias..we as their fans need to support him because i think some people will bash him with taeyeon( my opinion, everyone!)Just keep on writting i like your story so much!!
phuckyu #4
do whatever you want. c:
cries, did that sound mean?
i meant it like, you're free to do whatever
o u o
Ideal_Realist #5
I support them because a) Baekhyun chose her b) Taeyeon is definitely worthy c) they match well and will have a lot of fun dating I believe.
But the thing that's stopping me from "shipping" them is because I was a baekris shipper. And now look how well that went.
So I don't want to ship anyone anymore - I'll just let them do whatever they want and try my hardest not to be affected by the decisions they make.

Thank you so so much to everyone who has wanted me to stay. I didn't really need to be so dramatic - but at that moment I really needed the reassurance that I was wanted and I will cause some people to be sad if I were to quit without proper goodbyes.
Hunny_chan210 #6
STAYY!! DON'T LEAVE ME UNNIE!! T^T
EXOSeohyunShidae #7
Sweet heart it's called fanfiction for a reason. Although not on here, I write tons and tons of stories and oneshots about my OTP's from books and shows, even if the actual writer has metaphorically sh*tted on that couple completely. You keep writing.
itstosun #8
Stay, baeee.
I'm not sure if it's already been confirmed by SM or whatnot, and I actually think the pictures are legit real, but I wouldn't believe anything until SM had announced it. Besides, aren't all of the EXO members on a no-dating contract?
ikanadia95 #9
Keep on writing author-nim. Fighting !
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