It fcvking hurts watching them fall apart but what hurts more is that I can't do anything but watch them fall. I love and support him and all but I just can't take the thought of him leaving. It is very selfish of me to not let go even though his health is at stake, but it just hurts so much that he was the very reason why I am into this group called exo. Funny how this hurts more than how it should hurt after a boyfriend and girlfriend broke up. I want to forget all this ever happened and wake up from this worst nightmare but I just can't. This is reality. I want to 'un-stan' them and forget all the pain but I can't too. I was just too attached to let go.