Yeah, I know this is going to be complete nonsense especially to Myungsoo stans but... Sigh

Lately, I've been thinking of Myungsoo and his ex (Kim Doyeon). I know it's already been almost a year but I don't know why there are still things that bothering me like I'm always wondering how much did he loved her? How far did they go because of that love? :( I know I'm just hurting myself thinking of these things but i'cant help myself not thinking about it. It's my fault too. Sigh.

I admit it still hurts. Those airport photos of Myungsoo with hickeys, hiddent twitter messages, same bracelet, shirts and shoes that Thanks to on Destiny album :'(

Sigh. I'm really hurting myself. After Doyeon speaks out about the issue I feel pity to her too that's why at the end I gradually accepted it whole heartedly. If they really loved each other, then go. Who am I to stop them. But why am I still hurting? Then I just realized I still hasn't accepted it :(

I don't know if the reason why am I really hurting right now is because he loved her or its just that there's really no chance for me to be with him.

But then I want him to be happy if he still loves her I will not stop him I'll just accept it. It's still his life tho :(

At the end I just really want to know, Myungsoo, how much did you loved her? :'(