Just Something I Needed To Say

This is just going to be a small post I wanted to make before I update. I have been feeling upset and depressed over life in general and the horrible people in my life. After coming to terms with my doctor, I have discovered that I am a cynic. I used to be so nice and sweet to others but that all changed when I became depressed with who I was and who I wasn't. I tried my best in doing what made me happy but now I don't even know what that is anymore. I don't know what I want to do in life and who I want to be. I don't even know what I want to eat for dinner, so why should I have to know what I want to spend the rest of my life doing?

But the thing that really bothers me is how people react to others who are depressed. The fact that they can just ridicule them and brush away their problems with a wave of a hand. Just because someone smiles doesn't mean that they mean it. Just because someone says they're okay doesn't make it true.

Telling someone they can't be sad just because someone else has it worse is like telling someone they can't be happy because someone else has it better. The only thing keeping me sane is knowing that I am the protagonist of my life and maybe the love interest of someone else's story. Maybe I am the supporting character to someone else's life. Maybe I'm the person who unintentionally changes someone's life around for the better.

And that makes it okay. It make life worth living.

It makes being depressed just a tad bit better.

Back to Top ↑

Comments

You must be logged in to comment
Justmyself5 #1
I can't really say I can relate to you because I've never really been deeply depressed, due to the fact that I'm a happy vitamin~~~
Anyway, even though we might not know each other in the flesh, you have this community in AFF to help support you during these times. Don't mind those people who make you feel down, because truth is, they really don't matter. Like you said, you're a protagonist ^.^ you do what you do and that's why people in your life love you♡♡♡♡♡
Diamondkai88 #2
Being depressed once in a while is fine. No one is happy virus all the time. Life has its ups and downs. Just don't let it overtake you :)
ParkHyeri #3
I fully know that I have no right to tell you what to do in any way, but please stop being depressed. I understand what it's like to be ridiculed. Just like you said, people just get waved off. It's just like they're nothing. It's kind of personal, but I'll just share it. That's basically how I've been treated my whole life. There's not much difference between someone who is just barely being brushed off like they're nothing and someone who has been forever. Throughout life you don't need everyone to be your friend. You have to be your own friend. You have probably heard this a million times, but it's true. What you think of yourself matters way more than what others think about you. This might seem really stupid of me saying this, but just remember to just keep your head up high. Think about the positive side. There are moments when people break down, but just remember that life is short. You don't know what will happen, just do what you want and forget all the bad things. Live how you want to. Don't live under people who just ridicule you. Stick close to people who are worth your time.
Haerin55 #4
I understand what you mean. I have depression too ,but i can't even tell my friends because they won't even listen to me.
lizcheung #5
I totally understand where you are coming from. Tons of people don't see the seriousness in depression. People don't understand anything about it until they themselves have gone through it. You are such an amazing person to see the light in this situation. I'm glad you got some help! Don't let anyone bring you down. If this helps you really have a way with words, writing is your talent. Maybe through writing you can become stronger. I know it when people are very sensitive to your condition. But I hope you get better!!!!!!!
Back to Top ↑