I don't know why I don't seem to belong to any group. It makes me sad that even though all the people around me make me feel like I'm welcomed but when I turn my back they insults me and make fun of me. They call me names and compare me to ugly cartoon characters and all I can do is ignore it. I feel sick about everything. I did nothing wrong. I was and always misunderstood.

They want me to join their so-called 'fun' but that fun means partying and neglecting our priorities and end up as a failure. I have my reasons why I say no to them. First, though they think I'm rich, my family just gets through and I can't afford to waste too much money for partying but everytime I tell them I'm not, they look at me with utter disbelief in ther faces and say that I'm just fooling them.

Second, though sometimes I go with them I'm not into partying so I feel a bit awkward and I try my best to mingle with them but they think I'm a party-pooper.

Third, I am a really principled person so I really hate doing things like cheating but they think I'm just being selfish and greedy bastard that only wants to be the one succeeding that up like a goody two-shoes loser. I worked really hard, as in so hard, to be what I am that everytime I think about my past I feel unshed tears on my eyes.

Fourth, when they ask me to 'help' them, they make me do all the work! I mean, we are all humans so I have work and get tired or lazy too! Every time I decline them, they think I'm a self conceited bastard that hogs all the praise to himself and when I try to help them, they make it look like I'm the one asking the favor and I need to adjust to their time!

Fifth, them make it look like that because I like K-pop, I'm an idiot and doesn't value my own culture. How about them, listening to American songs? To "Oppa Gangnam Style" and "Gentleman"? K-pop is the only thing I am holding unto and make me happy.

Lastly, after everything I've done for them, when I'm not around, they make it look like I am an untouchable, that I'm a bastard that no one wants to interact with but all I did was do my best helping them and  trying to fit in.

Even though I want to escape, I can't. I don't have anywhere to go. I'm basically stuck here and persevering through everything that I am in. I feel so alone. Like, I don't know where I belong to. I just hope that everything will be better in the near future so wish me luck...

Any opinions?