Life of Soh: Exiting Fandom
Welp. I hate to make big announcements of things, so consider this a small announcement that I'm making just so that I can reach everyone who's asked, or is curious, or doesn't know yet. I'm notorious for announcing things WAY after I've already started doing them... and well, this is no different. I've been working on these changes for several months. I guess I like to feel very strongly and decisively about things before I broadcast my decisions to others? :D;
Those of you who read PR have noticed a lack of updates in the past few months and, if you read the A/N, plenty of RL reasons behind it. Those reasons are becoming more and more important.
No, nothing tragic happened RL, with the exception of my realizing that an entire year of my life was basically wasted on fandom (While I love EXO, this doesn't make me feel good about life, it makes me feel like a complete failure of a human being TAT). Ever notice how when someone says they're away because of "RL stuff" other people go "awww evil RL keeping you away from fic/exo/fandom! ;; /hugs" and they mean it in the sweetest possible way?
Except... why does that statement earn pity? "RL stuff" means I'm living my life, enjoying it to the fullest, tackling challenges that actually matter and make a massive difference from day to day and in the long run.... just not loafing around online. I understand that for students, that statement makes perfect sense. when I was that age it was exams vs online and DAMN STRAIGHT did I like online life better than school! Silly homework keeping me away from things I love D: So it's applicable and I don't fault any of you who might've said this to me, not knowing that I'm not actually of that age anymore and that in my case it's actually pretty shameful to still be spending upwards of even 1 hour a day on fandom instead of on that matters. In short, I LOVE to be away due to "RL stuff", it means I'm kicking at life and dealing with REAL . You might see this same attitude come through in my characters - well, it came from somewhere xD Chanyeol encouraging Baekhyun to own his life? HMMMMM. I did say PR was very close to home for me. Well, it's time for me to stop being Baek with his escapism and addictions (hello, fandom) and start being Phoenix. Rise from the ashes and all that jazz, baby.
Don't get me wrong - if fandom/twitter/tumblr/etc is what you enjoy, you are more than welcome to and I DO NOT judge you. However I do judge myself for doing it, because I have no excuse. I'm not a teenager, I'm not a student, I'm not living with mummy and daddy and haven't for 13 years, I have bills to pay, relationships to build, goals to achieve, life to live, and quite frankly, I'm not a cat. I get ONE life so I'm happy to be "busy with RL" :) #YOLO
So, all that personal babble aside, I'm sure what you're really wondering is....WILL SHE FINISH PR? IS SHE LEAVING AFF? OMG CHANBAEK DDD: jk jk <3 Here's the deal:
Are you leaving AFF?
NO, I will still have my account here for any fanworks I find time for.
Are you going to abandon Phoenix Rising?
NO, it will be taking a backseat to my original writing, however. I will update whenever I'm able to, but there will be long lapses in between. Hope you will stick with it but I understand if you don't want to.
Why are your stories private? (question from Tumblr)
Because I like to know who's reading my stuff.
Why are you closing your Twitter?
It takes 2-3 hours to read my timeline updates, and all I see there is endless pictures, screaming, and EXO-related chaos. Imagine getting home from work at 8, getting into Twitter, and emerging at 10pm or later realizing I didn't ever cook dinner, I'm hungry & exhausted, I need to clean my house, I could've been out with friends, I need to sleep within an hour, whoops there goes my life! It's a HORRIBLE sinking, self-loathing feeling every single day. I can only take that for so long, feeling ty about having wasted my life away, yanno? The fast paced chaos of fandom is anxiety-inducing, on top of giving you whiplash! And the funny thing is, in those hundreds of tweets, which I read because I want to keep up with friends' lives, I VERY RARELY find tweets about...friends' lives! In 400 tweets, I might find 5 tweets about the people themselves, and 396 about EXO. So, @Lady_Sohbet is closing in 2 days. I'm taking back my life and my time from fandom, dammit. Much as I tried to filter and follow carefully, it's nearly impossible to filter out the ty aspects of fandom. Unfortunately it's an all-or-nothing scenario so I'm going with 'nothing' because it'll make me feel a lot better.
So where are you going?
I'm going to focus! I've created a Twitter and Tumblr account which will be dedicated to my writing efforts with bits of relevant RL stuff sprinkled in so as not to bore you too much lol. I will NOT be following back fandom blogs or fandom twitter accounts because then what difference would I have made in my life? None =_=! Bear in mind though whether I follow you or not I will always reply to mentions, just as I did on my lady_sohbet account.
And I WILL post notices here of fanfic updates as well. Basically, all I'm taking out of the equation is all the screaming about EXO. I'll go back to doing that quietly on my own, a few times a year, on my own terms. xD I really don't need to know what they're doing every ing hour of the day. If you follow me with a non-fandom account, let me know as I may not recognize or know your username. I like to know who y'all are. /significant looks at VIPExotic and velvetsand who kept me in the dark for months D;/ Say hello on Twitter so I know you're there! I don't babysit my social media and half the time I don't get notices about follows and such. I read mentions and tline. So come say hi XD
Writing twitter: @HanaKimWrites
Writing tumblr: HanaKimWrites
What about your existing Tumblr?
Will remain solely as an archive for myself, will not be updated. Keep up with me at my writing tumblr!
Ask.fm?
Still open! Will remain open for fic-related questions.
What's this original writing you're talking about?
I'm working on a YA fantasy novel (Asiatic setting, as opposed to the typical Western/European fantasy!) with working title The Northern Prince. I'm super excited about it and will be sharing character and writing tidbits, and would love love love to have your feedback. I think you guys will really like some of these characters x3. I'm working hard on transitioning into proper novel writing style, there are so many little nuances that differ from fic. Some of you saw me begin this transition with Turnabout, which was, no pun intended, a huge turning point in my writing and made me think, hey... I think I can do this for real o_0. So why aren't I?!
...yeah it's a good question, isn't it.
Anywho, I hope you will support me \o/ <3
I'll be posting updates, info & excerpts via my twitter and tumblr so follow me there!
Any other questions? Feel free to ask me in the comments :3
<3 you all.
Soh
P.S. I might have a present for you by Valentine's Day. We shall see >u<
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