Hello! Holla! Hai! Aniyeong! I'm Diyana, im from Malaysia and im 16 years old but 17(in Korean age). This post is dedicated to my forever bias(i hope).

im really love Kpop but im in a long-hiatus for 1 year. i start loving Kpop when the drama Boys Over Flower airing but after the drama ended, i stop loving Kpop too. i dont know why i stop loving kpop but,

When Exo debut in April 08, 2012 with MAMA, i starting to  love with kpop.

i searched 'Kpop newest songs' in youtube. i just scrolling down in youtube then i found Exo MAMA MV and i really thought they're really amazing and i really fell in love with D.O when his first part in MAMA. I fell in love with him in the first sight. I think he really manly and handsome. He got a great voice too, he is cute too.

But, i not really into kpop yet and i not know about Exo and their members names.

And in an early year in 2013, i was watched 393 channel and i saw Exo performance as one(Exom and Exok). the first person i was searching for was Kyungsoo. And i cant stop fangirling after i found him. the other members were really amazing but my eyes is just for D.O. and after that, i start my investigation about Exo and midst of my investigation i fell in love more with Exo, especially D.O. 

For two months, i still looking more about them. i learned about their OTP and i automatically ships KaiSoo XD. i learned that D.O onstage and offstage was really a different person. i start love him and more deeper after knowing his adorable nature.

i was crazy about him, really really crazy. i can't focus on my studies. when im at school, i can't help but feeling nervous, i cant think and really want to see Kyungsoo. my poor heart cant stand it when i dont sees Kyungsoo. it doesnt matters, Kyungsoo's picture,videos or his voices, anything related with kyungsoo. night and day i always monitoring them and my Kyungsoo.

my parents angry with me. my father once hitted me because im not studying but always staring at my laptop. my sisters always advicing me too. i knew im crazy but i cant stop my fellings(call me sasaeng if want to XD)my teachers always asking me too if i have any problems at home because my grades was falling down. 

im easy to falling in love but hard to forget them. but Exo or D.O is the first person that i love for a long times until now. i always been hurting and backstabbed because of love. from my cousins or friends, i always be the victim. its really hurts. if i think about it, i will cry. maybe that why i love D.O because:

He doesnt know anything about me, he never meet me, know my horibble past, hearing my voice, seeing my face and he will not judging me. 

He an idol, he cant know my friends or cousins so, he couldnt make a decision between me and my cousins and i will not hurting again. i enjoying loving him but my family always telling me that i cant be together with him because we are in a different level, really big difference.

I KNOW! i know we will never be together that why i love him. but, sometimes i felt sad too because i cant meet, hold, touch and knowing D.O more personally.

i always focusing to him, before sleep, before go to school, bath, eating or studying, back from school. i must seeing him. hearing his voice. i always staring at his picture until i fall in sleep. (im a creeper and pathetic fan)

i rejects all my hoobaes and sunbaes who asking me for a date because of D.O.

i really love him until my ideal type became totally D.O. my ideal type must cute and adorable like d.o, has an amazing voice, small and squishy like d.o, he must have an actions like d.o too. see? im really crazy.

im single for 3 years now(forever alone). well, its my own fault because i really picky and have a high taste.

I'm Islam. shock? LoLed. yeah, im proud to be Islam but i hate it when people judging my stories because of my religion. was it really wronged to write a story just because of my religion. why people looks down to Islam?  you dont know how beautiful and pretty my religion if you dont know about it. so, dont judge it. i respect towards other religions but they dont respect my religion. i never judge your religion and please dont looks down towards Islam. Islam is a beautiful religion. I know i cant write stories like my stories but writting stories is my guilty pleasure. 

In my religion, we cant love or idolize towards someone too much until it make us default(?). so now, i trying to not too loving Kyungsoo. and, i start to living in a reality now. im searching for a boy, more in reality, i means, the boy who's can see me, talk, judge me, and make a desicion. i cant together with d.o because we in a different religion. one more points to 'Can't be with D.O' team!

Kyungsoo will always be my first and last love in my dream(fantasy).

and now, i must search someone more real in my life(reality)

its was painful to love someone who's really far far away with you, right?

im a fool and crazy. but i will try to change. TRY TO CHANGE myself.

i will focus on my studies and my family more than D.O XD

For D.O! 

Happy birthday love! i hope he always stay strong, smile, happy and healthy. i want take all his pains and protect him from this cruel world. please stay cute, adorable and squishy forever! <3  

crs; to the gifs owner.

Happy Birthday Do Kyungsoo! for 2 years loving you, this is the first time im celebrating it! I hope you will always laughing and have a great time with everything you do. i will always love and support you with everything you do! 

Sincerely:

-BubbleDumb- XD

(this is me :3. ugly? aww. i know XD)