Warning: I've never been as angry, sad, worried, disappointed, helpless, and empty as now. So, if I say something rude and completely unthoughtful, please don't be offended, tell me and I'll apologize. Thank you.

OK...

We all are aware that it's the beginning of 2014. Everyone is expecting a new beginning and a happier life. But why is it that the kpop fandom is suffering from so much ? And this time, it's not the stupid rumors or crazy sasaeng fans. It got serious.

I come on AFF after one ing day of not being on it and this is the I get?

First, I discovered Leetuek's father and grandparents died. The rumor was that they died in a car crash. But the police told a completely different story. Apparently, the father was found hanged and the grandparents were found dead, lying on the bed. The police believed it was the father that killed the grandparents before taking his own life. The grandparents suffered from advanced Alzheimer's disease which is like memory loss and having trouble organizing your thoughts but much worse. (I know I'm bad at explaining it but read more about it here, it's really helpful) and the father suffered from clinical depression. (Again, I can't explain it very well but these links will help you understand the situation much better) Some Super Junior members have stopped their schedules for Leetuek's sake so they could be with him. Ryeowook couldn't because he was unable to get away from radio hosting. And please don't bash the radio, they must have their reason(s), we'll never know. We can't really blame anyone really. The dad was suffering from depression, to have three family member taken away from him (Leetuek) so suddenly, it's heart wrenching. I can't imagine the things going on in his head right now, it's must be hard. So let us pray, after all he's done for us, it's the least we can do.

Second, there's an idol killer out there somewhere, dangerous and crazy. And unfortunately, her real identity is unknown, people called her Kim Yeoshin, no one's really sure if that's her real name or not. Sadly, the police hasn't taken action. She has done some extreme things to our beloved idols and has almost taken their lives. This is not something to joke around with. 

1. Remember B.A.P stage during the Power era? Himchan was sweating like crazy. Kim Yeoshin put diarrhea medicine, oil, and benzene in a coffee and gave it to Himchan before the stage. 

2. Kim Yeoshin added glue in orange juice and gave it to Yuhno. After that, he had to go to the ER because he      had a stomach pump. They went to court for that, but Yuhno decided not to charge her because she was so young.

3. She tried giving hydrochloric acid to B1A4 Baro but failed.  (Hydrochloric acid can melt the organs in a human        body if they drink it wrong)

4. She tried giving benzene to Infinite L but failed

5. She tried giving Dongwoo from Infinite something weird to eat but failed.

6. She was a sasaeng fan of Infinite and bothered Dongwoo A LOT when she figured out his phone number.

7. There are some other things but these were major ones.

Rumors said that her next target is Sehun. Exo fans have taken notice and action. In the upcoming Idol Star Olympic, Exo fans are going to watch over Sehun and make sure he doesn't eat or drink anything for the sake of his health and safety. But some say that saying Sehun is the next target is just a distraction so she can target another Exo member. No one really knows what's really going on. So let's all watch over Exo and the other idols because we love them all and we cherish them as much as they cherish us, maybe even more. We don't want them to suffer from something that they don't deserve. It can lead to serious problems and maybe even death. 

Just...I don't care who you are, but you came across this blog, that means it's your fate. So please go read this. It gives you a more detailed explanation of what's going on with the girl.

Then, there is this very accurate fortune teller and she has predicted these things already and look where that took us, it happened. A few days ago, she predicted that a very popular idol will die. I honestly don't have a reaction towards this, I just don't know what to feel anymore. Every single idol train so hard to chase after their dream and some fans and 'others' don't even appreciate that and just decides to do whatever they want. I can bare imagine how the idols see us now. They're probably afraid or even terrified that they have fans like this. And we (the normal fans) get brought along with this crazy chaos that we never created.

Lastly, I'd like to rant this...

Sometimes, I think about giving up on kpop as a whole. There is always too much chaos, drama, and heart breaking things happening. But I'm going to be honest with you, I never ever expected something like this to happen. It's the beginning of 2014, why do these things have to happen? I'm tearing up a little as I'm writing this, because I can't believe the that people do these days. But then what's keeping me from going you ask? Isn't it obvious? The addicting music, the gorgeous people, the fun-loving personalities, the list goes on and on.

Kpop isn't just a kind of music, it's a way of life. 

I'm ing 13 this year, I never expected myself to actually sit here for an hour and just type out my feelings like this. There is honestly a lot I can say about kpop, it's like telling me to explain life, I can't, but it's fascinating and beautiful. I'll just stay on topic this time. We don't know what will happen in the future, and the present is too fascinating for us to look back into the past. I just hope that we'll all stay together as one forever. I was never capable of saying cheesy things, but I just hope you are getting my message.

Thank you for listening...