People come and go in our lives and while we are aware of this fact, it doesn't lessen the pain when they do leave us. it's funny that it is only when they leave that you start to remember all the good things they did for you, the lovely memories you had together and then you start to feel regret, wondering why ypu never made that extra effort tp treat them better. My grandmother and I only see each other for about a month every year. While I wouldn't consider us close, I loved her and I knew she loved me too. Even though we don't get to spend much time together, we could easily chat about anything. I liked listening to her talk about the experiences she had, the people she has met and the funny memories she had of my mother and her siblings. Even now, I refuse to believe that I will no longer have the chance to talk to her again. I won't get the chance to ask how she makes her chicken taste so nice, how she came to become so strong, how many times she had chased after my uncles with a broom because they had done something wrong. I refuse to believe that I will never hear her voice again, never be able to hold her hand and tell her she looks extra beautiful, never be able to laugh at the way she swears at my uncles and aunties when they smother her with kisses. My mind has yet to accept her absence and I wonder, how could I when it feels as though she is still here. Like my mind expects to see her when we return, and rather than attending her funeral we will be going to her house, and she will be there, on that same couch watching television, having waited for use for the whole day. I wish this could all be just a dream, but it's not. I regret not returning sooner, at least that way I would be able to see her before she leaves. I regret not spoiling her with more presents and surprises because she deserves it. I regret not being able to tell her one last time how much i love her before she left. I regret many things. Now all I can wish for is that she rests in peace. Hopefully she will be free of pain and the torture of health problems and infections now. R.I.P