Hi.

This is my first blog post, and it's actually pretty sad for me to have to post about something like this (Which you will find out about later).

Firstly, for those of you who don't know yet, I'm 15 years old this year (like, legit) and I'm Secondary 3 in Singapore. I've just finished my end of year exams and it's precisely because of those that I haven't updated in more than a while. I'm taking my O levels next year and for those of you who don't know, Singapore is a really fast paced society, and I'm stressed out most of the time. I have extended curriculum now, as well as CCA three times a week for four hours each, and it's supposed to be the holidays!

Recently, my grand uncle passed away as well. My parents attend the wake every night (I go every alternating night), and it's pretty depressing for everyone at home. They've been nagging at me to study, but I'm seriously burnt out by now, especially since I can't do my normal destressing activies. Like eating, because I'm on a diet, or writing.

I'm not trying to say that it's just because of life or that's gotten in my way, but also something that happened to the finished drafts.

My fic writing process is this - I dream of it, I think of the plot in like a minute, I type it out, and save it on my thumbdrive for further editing.

So what happened was that the thumbdrive with my whole life inside was cleared out by my dad. When I found out, I was seriously devastated.

I was close to finally finishing the bathouse, i had a chapter of I knew you were trouble and another of Reign of the dragon emperor, and two or three more one shots I was going to post next week. About 10k words that hadn't been posted, as well as the new edited version of guardians (even the original) was deleted.

I almost cried when I found out. I've never been this depressed about anything before.

I've once sworn that I'd never go on an official hiatus, but I've got no choice now that I have close to no inspiration or drive to write. It's never happened before, and tbh I'm actually pretty scared. I mean, what if it doesn't come back?

I'll try my best to type out something, but I'm not sure if I can. The hiatus will be, at least, until the week after the 16th of November. It might be longer or shorter, I'm still figuring that out.

I just hope that I'll get my inspiration back once I see Luhan at K-wave.

Again, I'm really sorry about the hiatus, and I hope you don't unsubscribe, although I'd understand why.

Thanks for being supportive :]