Why can't i just let go...
I couple months back i wrote this blog post about my ex boyfriend and how he kept breaking my heart over and over again.
Well now i want to get over him! I'm desperately trying to get over him, it's been a year since we broke up and i've had casual flirts afterwards, three times actually, but i still dont seem to be able to forget him.
I wonder why... we were only together for about a month, but this person was able to get into my heart after so little time, and i'm just wondering why?
Why was he that special to me?
Why do i keep getting hurt every time a post of him and another girl pops up on my facebook, even if it's not even a girlfriend?
It annoys me that i feel this way, everytime i meet his eyes i still melt.
Why? I would love to understand why? he wasnt even that special, at first i wasnt even nice to me when we started dating? So why?
I'm seriously wondering how i'm going to make this feeling stop!
I recently deleted hi from my contact list on facebook, so now he wont be able to see when i'm online and i wont see when he is. But it was hard... why?
It feels so stupid to feel like this?
He was a jerk who at first teased me about my looks, body and stuff, he teased me about my likes, and he never had time for me. But we had fun and i still loved him. But why did i love him so much when he werent even nice to me some times?
Why do i keep hoping that some day he might come back to me?
I dont want to anymore! I dont want to dress up for him everyday, hoping for him to think i look good, when i know it wont matter. but i still do it?
AND I WANT TO ING STOP!
Well... i just needed to get that out of my system, because i'm hating myself for still feeling like this...
It's no fun! I want to fall i love again, i want to forget like i did with the others.
I dont want to stay weak from his looks... he wasnt even that good looking! Urgh this is annoying!!!!
But thanks for reading if you made it that far... xD
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