i dont understand why i let him break my heart like this every time.... it's been almost a year since everything fell apart.... was he even that special to me? i guess he was... but why?

why does it hurt like this, a smile, a laughter, a bit of attention from him is enough to break me...

all this pain... i never thought i would feel like that around him again...
i'm trying to stay strong, to smile and laugh... but the way he looks at me...
the way our eyes meet...

why do i let him break my heart like this every time?....

time to stop crying now dear and go to sleep...