For 19 years I've been fighting my demons and for 19 years they have been doing a good of keeping me down. I'm so tired  of fighting guys I'm really am. Pretending to be happy always trying my best. But for what for ish to ge thrown in my face? I'm so tired. I really just want to die. Nothing ever goes right. The people arouund are only after what I have. They laugh and joke in my face, but I'm no fool. I know what happens behind close doors. I wish I was dead. To just sleep forever and thn I wont have to put up with the world's lies and betrayals. Is it wrong to love people? Is it wrong to be happy? If it is...just let me sleep forever. The demons...I think they have finally won.