I just want to say thank you all of those that have encouraged me. I've taken your wods int consideration and concluded that you are right and will try harder to fight my demons.

Ok so this is what happening now. Its not good new but...I feel better telling you. The funeral for my baby cousin was today. It was horrible. In the middle/close to the end of the pressession my cousin received a call from the hospital out of state and it was reported that the other triplet has taken ill also. My heart was crushed. It gets worse. My two year old cousin took ill and was rushed to an hospital out of state. They said he had a tumor in his stomach. They did test... It was cancer. The cousin that I mentioned was shot and killed; well we can't bring his body home nor bury him because he had no insurance and the family has no money to get him and then pay to bury. I still haven't talked to my mom. She wont be home for Christmas..nor my birthday.

Its hard guys. It really is. Please send your prayers. Wish me luck during these troubles and I hope and pray that your life doing well.

Love you and thank you for listening..