People come people go, but why it always happen to me.... Why...why....why? One by one missing from me....One by one gone from my life. 
It is really my fate from God to be always alone in this world? I can't become closer to anybody in this world....It is the curse to me?

It's really really hurt even the tears flow right now, I know is it futile...You won't come back, I will always alone....Maybe I'm the bad person, that why this happen... Maybe this is the punishment from God to me. 

Don't have to say sorry because you never had made mistake, despite the one who always make mistake is me... And don't claim you're idiot because you're not but it was me... because I know I should not shed a tear but there a watery in my eyes, the pain still there in my heart... and I won't say that F word as it completely broken me... Please..please don't say those word to me... 

But....so many times I pledge to you...so many time I try to coax you...you still say those word to me...in the end you leaving me. You claim and ask me to give you some space, to heal your broken heart, to heal you sadness...until one day you will come back with the happiness. 

Yes, I can give you some space... if I can I would like to give this entire universe to you... run, run from this earth that give you sadness and go, go to any planet that you like to hide, to regain back your happiness... and I will always wait for you here in this coolest planet alone as the coolest as my heart feel right now even though I don't know when will you come back again... just I hope that I still there when you come back later... 

p/s : For those two my beloved dongsaengs, hope both of you can reconcile again, regain your happiness and be back like before. Both of you broken, I'm also broken, both of you sad I'm also sad. I will always pray for you...and I will always wait for you and one things I want you to know I will always there for you...

I'm spaceout now... currently in Planet Pluto