Do you ever feel like an absolute of ? i do, like all the time. i dont even feel second best... i feel like the last person anybody would think of if they were upset or just needed some company. im ligit beginning to hate the way i look even more than i already did so much that i've stopped eating... i didnt even mean to, just one day i woke up and just stopped, in the past like 4 days all i've had to eat is this little cheap pie thing. im hungry all the time but when i go to eat i just cant...and when it comes to people there is ALWAYS someone that's waaaaaaaaay better than me :/ i dont even take complements, if anyone tries to say something good about me i never ever ever believe it but when i get an insult i agree with it.. LIKE WTF IS GOING ON BRAIN!!! urrrrrrrrrrg. i've even completely falling out with my brother so i feel completely aone in my house now cause he's the ony one i ligit speak to...

 

i keep being depressing -.- i put these kind of things on here cause if i put it anywhere else then i get questioned or made out to look like an attention seeker... im not, i just need to write down to get it out my system cause i've been so secretive for so long so i feel i cant tell anyone anything... *sigh*