Remember in my last blog post, I said I would be taking a 4-6 month hiatus?

Well, I don't want to keep anyone waiting or hoping for an update. 

I've been mulling this over for a couple of weeks now and I've come to a conclusion. 

I'll be deleting my AFF account soon.

I don't want to just leave it there with the flies, nor do I want to just delete it without telling you guys.

Of course, I've thought about this a lot. Fanfiction became a huge chunk of my adolescent life. I've been writing since I was thirteen (not necessarily only K-pop fandoms), but I've also thought about when I'll be stopping. Because this, along with K-pop, is just a phase for me just like My Chemical Romance. 

Unfortunately, growing up means letting go of the obsessions that make you happy. When I was eleven I was in love with MCR, but that love grew away from me in time, then along came K-pop and it stayed with me for more or less two years before it started to grow old. 

I still listen to My Chem and I'm sure I'll still be listening to K-pop when I feel like it, although I've deleted most of them (Big Bang, some SHINee albums and f(x) albums) 

I also decided to not go to the concert in September. I can use the money for the ticket to buy other more useful things.

Why the sudden decision to delete?

I've already said that I didn't want to leave anyone hanging. Secondly, I've lost the passion to write anything about K-pop, but not writing itself. I've lost the K-pop fangirl in me, to put it simply. And I don't think I'll write anymore fanfiction in the future, any fanfiction. 

I guess this is what I've been fearing when I was younger; growing up and letting go of your teenage hobbies and passions. But now that it's come, it's not so bad after all. It's been a good ride. I've learned a lot and improved my writing, so I can say I'm not coming out of this with nothing. 

I want to thank everyone here who read my work, who commented and who subscribed. Also my friends, and basically everyone I met on here.

I've left my stories open for copying so whoever wants to save them, they can do so. Anyone can also repost them wherever if you want. 

I'm also very sorry for all the stories I couldn't finish, most especially Cut Up Angel. I told myself I would finish it before I delete my account but I simply do not have the time. But for curiosity's sake, the plot was supposed to go like this: Minho falls for Taemin as a coping mechanism, they go out and be happy and Minho slowly recovers, and months later Yuri comes back with news that she's pregnant and has been living with her grandparents to hide it. I've thought of many other conflicts in the story, but that's basically the backbone of what it was going to be.

If anyone wants to continue the story for me, come forward and ask. 

Lastly, I'll be turning eighteen soon. And besides strawberry-flavored vodka, I also want to move on from AFF with a good and proper goodbye. 

I think I'll be making another blog where I can still write, but I won't be committing myself to any chaptered stories. 

I need to eliminate as many distractions from college as possible. I'll be having majors next semester.

P.S. I'll be deleting this account two weeks from now. 

Bye-bye~ 

With love,

Nikki <3