tbvh

i recently discovered (actually just the night before) that i had bulimia when i was before AND I DIDNT KNOW IT WAS BAD AND IT WAS A DISORDER i mean my 'binges' were massive and all and i just thought i was "cheating" when i'd throw all of them up but yeah...

 

and all those times all i ever thought while i was telling myself (while i was clutching my tummy doing everything just to throw it all up) was...

 

"I just want to be beautiful."

 

 

sounds like a part from a fanfic or something but this is 100% legit i swear

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ediblep4nts
#1
I used to have bulimia too....and i'm not gonna lie, my parents are kinda big, so they would always try to make me eat more and more and i felt like such a fat pig...so you know, i would always go run the shower so my family couldn't hear anything then go...throw up...and it just became so routine for me to do that, that when my family went on vacation (we all shared the same room), i would just sit on the balcony crying, trying to think of ways that my parents wouldnt hear me throwing up...i also joined the track team just so i could lose the extra weight, and i would not eat anything at all, then run for miles until i felt like i would pass out. All i'm trying to say is that i know what you're going through, and if you ever need to talk about it, i'm always online (:
LeeGinger
#2
Hey Jam. Idek what to say, i want to comfort you, but it's actually my first time to encounter someone who suffers with that kind of eating disorder, i just watch it on tv or read it on stories. So, um.. Hey, I hope you get better and um, i'm your friend so... If you have problems, you can talk to me or well message me. Hehe. I know it's not my place to say, but everything will be ok, i hope you will get over it soon.
And I know, even without forcing it, you will always be beautiful :)

P.S. I kinda sound like a stalker, i always comment on your posts. XD

p.p.s. It's me, BabyKonIsVip/Acey, I change my aff name, so yeah. :)

I'll stahp now ^^