I was on youtube just now watching random videos till I came across this video of L crying while reading a letter that his umma wrote. In the interview after, he said something about the tough life. (not being able to sleep well and etc...) Then, I remember that one of SJ's appa (Yesung I think) said that the parents would feel so heart broken to see their children so tired and stuff after their schedules.... 

This thought just came back to my head, would uri oppa/ unnie be better off if they didn't choose the stardom path? I feel like I am one of the reasons that cause them to be so tired, to have lesser time for their own and stuff. My heart really hurted... Sometimes I really think that all this tdols may be leading a better life if they didn't choose this path that they took right? I mean, they won't need to stay up 3 days just to shoot a 4 min MV and all through all the schedules that they go through...

Aish!!!! I don't know what I am blabbering about. It was just some thoughts that happened to pop out. And all this thoughts were really painful... Am I the only one who feels this way?

ps. For those who wasted time reading this, I am really sorry... I just needed to release some stress.