It was a big day indeed.

And for the first time I actually didn't think about anything except this day. But everything changes so suddenly when I decided to look for a certain person but ended up falls into one of 'those' again.

There's a few moments of silence when I accidentally caught 'them' and surprisingly 'they' caught mine too. I feel like everything around me is just a blur. Where everything seems to be in slow motion and I could hear nothing except the dim sound of people chatters. In the end, I regret the fact that I broke first when it just feels like I could hold on to it for an eternity. 

Up until now, I can remember clearly how it all happened. 

Regrets spread over me and I can't seemed to shake it off. 

:'(

sorry for posting nonsense like this. I just feel a little bit off today. :(