Ten minutes to midnight- that's when Only Rose told me to go upstairs and assemble the rest of the gang while she distracts Guy #4.  So I went upstairs and had Tenured Banker and Mr Thorn together, got the birthday surprise from my locker, went back downstairs and gave the gift to Guy #4.  He was obviously surprised to see all of us there at exactly midnight as I handed out the present.  Since we were in the company cafeteria, there were a lot of people looking.  Then some random person from the other table said in a loud voice "Guys, it's his birthday~!!!", and then the whole place erupted in a Happy Birthday song.  I could see that he was touched.  He thanked me for the present, but I told him that it was a concerted effort by the group, not just mine alone. 

The people were dispersing and I told him I was going back upstairs as my lunch time is almost over.  He thanked me again and gave me a tight hug.  I've been so depressed lately that I forgot how good it felt when he presses his body against mine (.......what??!!! O_O.....).  Going up, I kept thinking about the look on his face, the look on Mr Thorn's face...and I wondered...what would I be feeling at that moment if I wasn't aware of what was going on?  Maybe, just maybe, ignorance is INDEED bliss.  What you don't know won't hurt you.  Perhaps.  I carried on the rest of the shift forcing myself to focus on the money I would be getting with my 12 hours overtime.  Yes, money is a good distraction people.

Then came the end of shift.  We all decided to eat the cake that Mr Thorn bought for breakfast.  It's a good thing he got the knife first.  Had it been me, I would be slicing him up, not the cake.  Here I go again...getting bitter and jealous.  I want to ask him questions.  Stuff like, "Do I ever cross your mind?"  or "Are you two really going out or something?", or...or...I don't know.  The cake is taking over my thoughts. 

I felt full...like...REALLY FULL~! And remember my urge to smoke when I feel really full? I felt that again.  Guy #4 teased me before when I said I was quitting smoking.  He wants me to smoke again.  Well, now he would see me smoke again after I said I was going to quit.  I actually smoked in front of him on purpose, just to see his reaction.  He was shocked when I pulled out a pack of my favorite Marlboro Black and smoked one.  "What are you doing?  You said you we're gonna quit smoking?!", he asked in a semi-enraged voice.  "I can't help it~! I feel the urge to smoke when I'm really full.", I said in defense.

When the cigarette was almost over, I popped out another stick and used the first stick to light the second.  His eyes grew big. 

"Normibells, what's that?!  What are you doing?! That's your second stick!"

"I know how to count.  You don't have to remind me.  Please excuse me...I feel reaaaally full."  He rolled his eyes.  He was kind of pissed I guess.  I laughed a bit.  Perhaps I could get over him quickly if he would do that every day.  Mr Thorn doesn't smoke.  Actually, he smoked before but he didn't like the sensation that much.  A wave of jealousy swept over me again.  To hell with this. 

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After giving him the gift, he told us what his wish was.  Since he was away from his family, he only wished for his birthday to be extra special.  He told us that we granted his wish...he was teary-eyed when he said those words. 

Special.  How ironic and how bittersweet indeed.  I want to know what, or who, makes him smile at this time, because before I met him, I never knew how it felt to look at someone and smile for no reason at all.....