I can't get into relationships with the way that I am right now. But, when will I? When most of the time all I say is, "I don't know what to do."

Most of her friends disliked you because you got too close to her without them knowing. She didn't introduce you to them because she can't, couldn't, and wouldn't dare to label you as just a friend because both of you know that you were more than that to each other.

Whenever she would ask for favors, I'd do them willingly if I can. I didn't know why. She seems to be special to me. Maybe because she was different from all the other people I've met before. I can recall a time when I thought, "She's reality to me." Through her, I discovered that some things that I only see in movies can also happen in real life. I consider her unique.

When we were still just acquaintances, I always smiled whenever I was around her. When I was in their aparatment. Even the little things she does makes me smile.

When she told me the truth about her relationship with you I thought, "I was too slow," "I blew my chance." But, I don't think I ever HAD a chance. I, who considered her special, accepted you as her other half without any questions. But.. The things that you did to her almost made me regret that I accepted you. You hurt her. And although I should be mad at you, I can't seem to bring myself to do that. Now, you're thanking me for being her friend. I don't know what to feel.

Why am I not feeling anything?! I hate this. Am I really this un-attached? Why can't I bring myself to hate you? Why am I not affected by the things that my friends are going through right now?