Have you ever felt as if you're not good enough?

Thinking about such things crushes me. I just feel so helpless.

I found the love of my life. I love him so much and I'm really really sure that I won't love anybody else. He loves me as much as I love him, if not greater. We don't usually fight but when we do, we make up almost instantly. I know he will do everything to keep me happy, and I will also give everything I have to make him happy. Everything sounds perfect, right? However, no matter what I do, I can't shake the feeling that I'm not good enough for him.

He loved me before I loved him. And it's like he knows me better than I know him. I feel helpless everytime he becomes down because I have no idea what to do. I want to make him smile but I don't know how to cheer him up. Or when I do succeed in cheering him up, I say another thing that will make him sad again. It feels like he's giving me everything but I'm not giving him anything. And it . I feel like I always deny him of the fun that he wants. Whenever he wants to do something, most of the time I say no. But I have my reasons. I don't wanna go out because can't think of anything to do anyway. Lying in his bed, watching movies is more fun than walking listlessly. I don't want him to post stuff like pictures and printscreens because I don't like the feeling that everything we do is posted on the internet. Can't we just keep the memory to ourselves? Do we really have to let the world know about every single thing that's happening to our relationship? I think not. People aren't interested; on the other hand, they'd probably be annoyed. And there's also that pleasure you get when you have your own little secret. However, he's sensitive and he becomes sad and disappointed. I don't know why he wants to post everything on facebook but I don't want to ask him for fear that he will become emo again. He takes these stuff seriously. Idky. But although I have these reasons, I can't tell him because most probably, he will be even more sad. I don't know what to do. This distance really kills me.