so as you guys have seen (or not) i deleted my 2 recent blog posts about my depression :3

yesterday i realised that I'm better off smiling and laughing and that i'll wait patiently for 'C' to talk to me again ^^

im making it sound like i did something wrong but i guess i treasure her so much im willing to grow some balls and get over it. not literally. ew.

today after school we talked...kinda. not to each other but with a group of friends ^^ 'M' and my 2 A bestfriends LOL i had a science and english exam today and and and ;~; i did really bad in science D:

BUT APPARENTLY SHE WISHED ME GOOD LUCK ! I FELT REALLY HAPPY! :'D

EHEHE im kinda of glad im starting to get rid of this stupid depression ^^ but my depression will always be with me because of my family but YOLO :3

i hope this happiness keeps up until me and 'C' become bestfriend again ^^ but if that cant happen, then I guess friends is always an option ^^"

should I say hi to her tmro D:

honestly, im scared to talk to her because in my old school, everytime my friends would ignore me and i would talk to them, theyd look at mein disgust and tell me to go away...so i guess that the memory stuck to me and now i think if my friends ignore me and i talk to them they'll treat methe same way :3

i think its time i at least tried :3

i'd like to thank every single person who has been giving me advice ^^ you've been a big help! ^^

ILOVEYOU ALL!

wish me luck neh?

i have a maths and history (HISTORYYYY~ exo xD) kkeke ANNYEONG!

thankyou all again...