You know, I love writing story, writing a fanfic with my bias as the main characters, and sometimes imagine being the main girl

since I mostly write IdolxOc fanfic.

and to this, it's been awhile since I write one, it's been awhile since I actually update my fanfic [which I have a hard time to finish it]

It made me realise a little that I have lost myself, I have lose the motivation to keep on writing... and I don't like it.

I want to keep on writing since I love it but I don't know why I can't write now, it's weird.

The feeling is uneasy, it felt like I'm scared on writing.

You know, at first I thought that maybe I have writer block but no, I have a lots of idea to share...

I tired to watch dramas to get inspired but it didn't work.

*sigh*

I feel like I'm beeing weak.

I feel like I'm trap in the cage I made.

Maybe because I'm a bit perfectionist, maybe that's why...

#sorry for the rant, I need to let out some things....