I, normally just kept my problems by myself inside me and never told anyone. I usually can foget about it but sometimes I just can't. I felt like I need to let out this feeling but I really don't want to tell to others - my friends and family. It's kind of weird. I think it's better to let out here. A very perfect place.

And I think this is the 3th time I wrote about boys here. *sigh* Yup, again. I have some serious problem with boys, you see. I think I need help.

Let me tell a story because I know, people just love reading a love stories, right? It goes like this.....

Aparently, my best friend text me and she said that she will introduce me to someone, to some guy which is her friend in the same university which obviously I don't know since I'm not in the same university as her and him. She told me that she would gave him my number and then we could be friends. I was fine by that and I'm really cool with it. Well, just friends, right? (To tell the truth, I kind of excited a little becuase who knows maybe love can be sparks?)

I just had to work hard, right? maybe something will happen. I never fall in love  and never in relationship for 20 years. I also want to feel love too. But I guess my hopes just too high that I'm very dissapointed. Because we even hardly what I call friends. We are just someone that know each other a little.

So it does true as the quote said, if you hope too much, you will hurt too much.

I guess I'm still too innocent with this kind of stuffs, huh?

Anyway, back to the story.

After my friend told me that she already gave my number, I actually wait that day but no new text came so I thought maybe he was busy. So I just ignored becuase I'm pro in ignoring stuffs. The next day, he text me at night, just before I was about to go sleep since I have to wake up early to go to work. He told me that he was the guy that my friend gave the number. He also told me that he only know my name and wanted me to introduce myself. I'm used to this stuffs, really. It's awkward and I really try hard to be friendly.

I playfully said that I also don't know his name, like really my friend just told me that she will give my number to someone. So, he told me his name, saying that he wasn't gentleman becuase not giving his name. And so thats how we know each other. I told him about myself and he told me about himself. He talk/chat until late night that I had to stop since I need to sleep. And so, it end.

At that I time, I thought hard.  Is it possible that this guy might want to wow me??? something like that? becuase by just being friends, it's weird. or is it just my thinking? I don't know.

The next day, he text me again. At night of course. We talk/chat about stuffs. He told me that he had tests and he ask about my practicals work. He was the one that ask me and I rarely ask about him, so I guess he got tired. hmmmm.... I already know that I'm a boring type of person. So I'm half expecting on whats going to happen.

And it just last for 4 days. Yup, it's short right? Although I'm kind of expecting it, still.... it's dissapointing to me. That last day, it was fine (at least too me). we talk a lot and ended with a good night. I thought that maybe even he might not be my love interest, he can still be my friend, like close friend. *sigh* It didn't work I guess because the next day, and the day after that I have no more text from him.

Our conversation stop there and we never chat anymore and he never text me either. It's already 3 months? and I'm don't care that anymore.

The things is. It's not that I'm mad becuase I didn't get to achive my so-call dream, it's becuase that he cut off our conversation moment and I kind of piss off. WHY THE HELL HE WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME IN THE FRIST PLACE? Even if he just want to be friends with me, he can also text me once ahile. 

But since he didn't text me, I don't send him either. I guess, I held my pride high.

I'm not going to text a guy first unless it's about school and emergency.

Well, that's it with this guy. It's over. My story end here.