So, it's about 11 at night, and I should be sleeping. But I'm not.

Because

I'm

Bored.

I decided to post this just to have something to do until I'm sleepy, so I'm going to talk about what's going on with my life. This'll probably be really awkward, because I don't do these kinds of things often. Here I go!

The last few days have been really long for me. School ends in about 2 weeks, so I had my Algebra exit exam on Friday. I passed, but only barely >.< I've been really sick lately too. My chest has hurt and my contacts have been bugging me... I've also had a huge headache! One of my friends named Kylie hasn't been at school for a week or two, and I'm not sure why. One of my other friends knows but she said that Kylie would tell me herself. I really want to know what happened. I have some ideas, but none of them are definate. I also had a huge fight with one of my friends, and we don't talk to each other anymore. She told people secrets that she shouldn't have, and I don't feel comfortable telling her anything anymore. Does anyone know what I should do? Another of my friends almost always hangs out with other people, and I feel like she takes me for granted. I only have one friend that there isn't anything going on with. MY grandpa also died not long ago, and I just can't seem to let it go. It was actually just a few days before his birthday in March, but seomthing stops me from moving on.... My cousin proposed to his girlfriend a week or so ago, and I felt really happy because he told me before anyone else in the family. He trusted me to keep a secret. Everyone knows now, so I don't have to worry about letting something slip anymore. My other cousin is already married. Their younger brother is going to be a senior in high school, but he has already had two kids now.... I felt really hurt because I didn't even find out about the second child from him. I found out his girlfriend was pregnant by accidentally hearing my grandma talking, (Yes it was accidental I wasn't eavesdropping) and I didn't know it was born until it had gone through a chain of like 5 or 6 people. My mom is sick a lot, and has troubles with her back, jaw, chest, all kinds of things. My dad is always tired from working a job and being out on the farm, and his back and arms and legs are always hurting. I don't get to do many things with them unless they feel okay. I can't complain though, because they do a lot for me. They do things with me whenever they can, and have always loved me. I'm on the golf team this year, and even though my coach says I'm in the top ten I don't think so. I keep getting worse XD I went to a meet not long ago (my only one because the weather her is really bad) and by the end of it my ankles hurt really bad. I hurt them in track last year, which is why I didn't go out for it again. Another reason is because even though I'm actually pretty fast, I don't have much endurance. I've tried for years to increase my endurance but it's still really low. Maybe the reason I'm so depressed lately is that even though it should be warm and sunny here because it's May, it isn't. It's been really cold and has even snowed a few times. It'll snow, just melt, and then snow again. It hasn't snowed for a week or so, but it has been really cold. I never have been somebody who likes winter. I like swimming and being out in the sun and playing with my dogs. Speaking of dogs one of them had a close call not long ago. She was killing a racoon and it either bit or scratched her, and she had a high chance of getting rabies. I had to wait for two weeks to see if I could touch her again. It turns out she's okay, but I was really scared during that time. I also have a cat who's getting old and might die soon. I've known this cat all my life, and when he dies I don't know what I'll do. This may sound dramatic, but I really think I may cry for days, and might lock myself in my room. There have been a few nights I thought of what would happen when he dies, and I cry just thinking about him not being there. He's always there when I'm sad or crying, and he is probably closer to me than anyone. I've known him longer than my own brother. When he leaves me, and I start crying I'll wait for him to come meowing and rub his head against my hand, asking to be pet. And then I'll realize that he won't ever be able to come when I cry again. I think that when that happens, I'll finally realize he's gone. The one being that has never judged me or been angry with me, gone. I don't know how I'll take it. I'm crying right now just writing about him. I think this is long enough so I'll end here. One last thing. To anyone who is reading my story Life at 2:00pm, I'm really sorry I haven't been updating often. I'm planning on updating tomorrow or Monday, depending on when I have time. I would have updated instead of this blog post, but I really hoped to get this off of my chest. Thanks to anyone who bothered to read this!

Peace Out,

Kitktykatty