Blogging is so much fun now that I think about it. I just write out all I think about during the day and hopefully people read it lool!

So news broke out yesterday that APink's Yookyung is leaving APink, and I know, as a fellow pink panda I was super shocked and ready to slap myself in the face to see if it was real. APink is not APink without Yookyung! But I do support her as a fan to continue doing what she loves to do, which I guess in her choice is going to university and not being in APink any longer. I hope she does well in her studies and hope that it will take her far! I'm willing to stand by her as loyal fan.

Anyway, with that news breaking out, there was another article saying that they are looking for a replacement currently. Now this is where it gets interesting. I would die. DIE. to be a part of APink, as a big fan and a lover of Kpop. I think I have some aspects that could benefit the team such as putting the hip hop element into the group because they're always known as the fairies and girly girls, so I think it would be an interesting concept change. Also, I speak fluent english and understand most or all korean as well as speak. I've always wanted to be an idol ever since I went to korea in grade 5 and saw Shinee by pure coincidence performing at an amusement park that my family had decided to take me. Ever since then, I've been crazy for Kpop. 

I think I'm at the age where it's make it or break it. I'm getting older especially for the training process, and It's my dream to debut before my twenties. I'm not sure if I have a chance of making it, because I've been dancing for only 3 years total but I auditioned for my local dance studio's competitive company and got in after only one year of recreational hip hop. Now I don't know if that's impressive or if it's normal, but either way I'm the first in the studio to do so.

Also, I live in a very country, not that established, big houses kinda town and everyone knows that all of the auditions always take place in major cities like Toronto. Truth be told, I'm not that far from T dot, only about an hour and a bit more away, but there is absolutely no way of getting there without my parents knowing. And to add on, yes my parents do not approve of my dream. They say that it's something that will only last me about 8 years and then people will start to lose interest.

Of course I'm aware that times will change and if I were to debut, I wouldn't be popular forever, but I do have plans that I want to do after my idol career. It includes opening a charity and a suicide prevention and depression awareness campaign especially because of the hard years I had before. I want to be able to reach out to everyone who has been hurt and tell them that they're not alone. Also, I wish to go on many missions with churches to spread the gospel to those who have yet to hear it. Again, another dream of mine is to choreograph new dances for the upcoming idols after me.

All of these dreams are so far fetched...I'm turning 16 this year and it's a make it or break it time of my life. 

Also, it would be my life long dream if I could debut in Woolim entertainment, as a Woolim girl because of my ever growing inspirations Infinite. Everything is so...far away. I have no chance...but everyday I'm hoping something will come along and take me to where all of this comes true.