I just thought you guys should know that I'll be taking a break until further notice. I might update very slowly, but I just don't want you to get your hopes up on a quick "comeback" or anything.

The person I loved and trusted the most has left me after three years of what I thought was paradise. Apparently they were struggling with whether or not they like me anymore, and I guess they don't, so they left. It's been a week and all I can think about is everything we had. They have a new interest, in a girl, and I'm on the sidelines once again. 

I'm so sorry to disappoint my loving readers, but... I can barely manage to get up and dress myself right now. If any song were to be my theme, it would be "Coma", by B.A.P. Give that a listen, and look at the translations if you have to, and you'll see exactly where my heart is at. In fact, here, this is my heart song right now:

After you left, I lost control
I become drunk every night and stumble around
Spit out curses because I think of you, who was cold
I feel dirty
I overflow in anger, and scream
Your face that appears in the cracked mirror
It seems like our love that’s broken into many piece
I stand at the end of this tiring cliff, and
rip apart the memories I had with you
I don’t have it

What can I do What can I do
I get lost in a maze and stay in that spot
What can I say what can I say
It’s becoming blurred
I can’t see your face

I can’t move in the darkness
I can’t feel anything
Tears fall down
I’m trapped in memories of you, no
Please hold onto my hand, so that I can wake up
Please don’t go

Why did you throw me away like garbage
Just why can’t I do anything
Just why, why why do I throw all of the memories I had with you everyday

I’m sorry, I can’t help it
I can only look at you like this

You not being here not being by my side
My heart stops it’s the same as being dead
I can’t breathe living without you
I don’t even want to think about it
Believe me I can’t if it’s not you
It hurts so much
I think I’m going to go crazy
Your scent is deeply soaked
I think my heart’s going to explode
Even when I cry and cry and throw a tantrum, saying that this isn’t it
You, quite cruelly, say nothing

What can I do what can I do
Even if I struggle to wake up
I’m in that spot
What can I say what can I say
We loved
You were my everything

I can’t move in the darkness
I can’t feel anything
Tears fall down
I’m trapped in memories of you, no
Please hold onto my hand, so that I can wake up
Please don’t go

Why did you throw me away like garbage
Just why can’t I do anything
Just why, why why do I throw all of the memories I had with you everyday

You breathe inside of me
I’m looking for you
I want to hold you
Since my heart is burnt up,
I can’t hold back any more, because I might die

I can’t move in the darkness
I can’t feel anything
Tears fall down
I’m trapped in memories of you, no
Please hold onto my hand, so that I can wake up
Please don’t go...

I'm hurting so badly right now, I hope you guys can forgive me...