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Hi :) Since EXO's 1st anniversary is nearing, I just want to share something with you guys. I've been keeping this secret for a long time since their debut.

This thank you message is made with pure love and my experiences of being a fan. <3

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There came a time when my grades dropped. Everyone left me including my parents. I was alone, all by myself. No one to lean on. I kept crying every night regretting what I did.

Truth is, I wasn’t studying anymore. I was too busy looking for EXO updates.

                            I was mad at everyone. Sometimes I would blame EXO. I know, I was blinded by stupidity.

Would you believe that I was mad at EXO too? Well I was. To the point that I wanted to rip all my collected posters in half.

But something stopped me when I was about to rip my MAMA poster. That was my very first poster of them. It had numerous memories in it. I stared at it for a very long time. Then I started to wonder.

They weren’t instant superstars in the beginning.

They trained from 8am – 12 midnight.

They sacrificed their studies too.

They had to leave their loved ones so as to fulfill their dreams.

The chinese members had to keep up training even if they were bullied.

They were alone the whole time they were training.

They’re the only one who can protect themselves.

They spent most of their time training thinking that maybe one day they would debut and become an idol.

They experienced harder things. They endured the pain. Even until today. Their wishes came true; they’re an idol now.

But until now, they hide the pain. They always lie to us fans saying they’re okay when in reality, they’re not.

They don’t care if they’re forced to do something they don’t like just for the sake of us.

They don’t care if they get injured just so they can bring smiles on our faces.

In fact, they’re selfless. They don’t care how much hardship they experience just so they can give us the happiness.

I get it now.

I get the whole idea.

I posted that poster on the wall where I often look at.

Just so you know, I worked hard for months, studying. I sacrificed KPOP. I refused to open my computer.

I always read my notes everyday no matter how boring it was. When I felt lazy studying, I look at EXO’s poster then carry on studying.

When there’s an exam, no matter how sleepy I was, I continue to review.

I always keep this in mind.

“If EXO can do it, then I can too. This is for EXO.” Then I end up doing the “We Are One” motion before studying.

The day when I got my report card was the happiest day ever. X)

Why?

All of my grades were above 90. :D

Yey, study tips! ^^

I was beyond happy. I made that my official study routine.

1. Post an EXO poster in your room.
2. Think that what you are about to do is for EXO and you’ll never disappoint them.
3. Work very hard.
4. Success :)

 

I’m sorry if I wasn’t there when you needed comfort.

I’m sorry if I wasn’t there when you needed protection.

I’m sorry if I haven’t loved you enough.

I just want to thank EXO for giving color to my life.

They’re my main source of motivation for studying.

They’re my main source of happiness.

Those 12 boys from exoplanet are my everything.

I’d give up any material thing for them.

I’m willing to give my life if it means eternal protection for them.

These boys are the real definition of the word, “Strength”.

If you were to ask, “Love me the next lifetime too, okay?”

*saw this from a blog*

Dear, can I reply, “You’ve asked me that the previous lifetime already.”

If there is really a next lifetime, stop being my star.

It is okay if you are not exceptional, not shining, not an achiever, just a normal guy who isn’t strong, and needs protection.

And I will be able to get closer to you.

In the next lifetime, I’ll still love you.

I’ll protect you. <3

 

ADVANCE HAPPY ANNIVERSARY EXO!

We are one! :)

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