hi there sweethearts :)  Today/Tonight (wherever you in the world^_^) i would like to share the poem I made for my first love like i promised in my previous blog post. As far as I could remember, i made this poem during my first year in college, a day after I realize that i still like him even after we graduated from highschool, and that he's still the one I dreamt of becoming my first boyfriend. I didn't actually realize that I did fell for him until my cousin, who I was living with during college, made me come to my senses. I could still recall how she laughed when i cried on a rainy holiday just because I told her that it hurts missing someone when you don't have the right to feel that way. She was laughing while she was telling me that she knows who he was & that it is no longer a simple crush or admiration & that it is already the thing they call love. That made me cry even more and i don't know why anymore. 

     Right now,i am laughing at myself while i am remembering these events on mind. Although, i am almost done with trying-to-get-rid-of-my-feelings-for-him part of my life, i still think of him once in a while because i thought it's healthy for some weird reasons..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAh. geez! can no longer imagine myself 4 years ago falling for him like a martyr..HAHAHAHAHAH

    So here it is.  On my next blog post, i would post the first poem i made for "SAIO" (let's call him that). hope you'll like this. Ciao!

for SAIO

Dreaming of you makes my heart blue
Thinking of you makes me long for you
Knowing you want someone else
Makes my soul rage like hell

I’ve waited for years
Now i shed tears
Not of joy but of pain
‘Coz it cut like shears

Unlike you, I never had anyone
You were the only one I cared for
I was hoping you’ll love me too
But I guess you’ll never do

I’m hurting & hoping that in time you’ll be mine
But now I’ll think of you less
I’ll pick up & mend the pieces of my heart
So that I’ll be ready the next time I’ll fall apart