Life's a

I just feel like right now.

On my new scool, I have always know that I wasn't bullied, far from it, but my classmates (the guys of course) are talking about me behind my back, and they're constantly making fun of me. They're worse to me than my friends, and I am completely fine with that. I mean, there's nothing good about me. I'm different, I'm not beautiful, I don't wear make-up, and I'm not very smart when it's not about grammar or spelling.

But recently, even my friend noticed how much they're at me right now. How they're making fun of me all the time. And it hurts. Before this school, I was bullied for many years, and now I feel like that again. I'm not downright suicidal again, but I really wish I could just end my life. There's nothing in it for me. And I'm always so close to breaking down and cry for hours whenever they talk about me while I can hear it.

 

Sorry for this, I just needed to get it out. You can return to your own lives now.

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SujuLoveNL #1
See it this way, if they talk about you behind your back, you are an interesting subject and they are probably jealous of something and too scared to say it in your face, else they had no reason to talk about you behind your back ^^

And those who bully often feel regret when they are older. Stay strong ^^~
FlameFlowerful #2
you're infinitely more precious than you think.
Cassies_are_B2UTIFUL #3
This is gonna sound strange and probably will sound like a lie in your opinion but have you considered that the guys are making fun of you cause they like you? It took me ages to figure that out myself. For some reason, guys after a certain age will tease/be mean to girls they like. I don't know why. Maybe it's to hide that they like the girl so they don't get teased by the other guys. *shrugs* It's a possibility. I'm not saying that you haven't been bullied because I do believe you on that, but it's possible some of the bullies were/are guys that have crushes on you.
VirusCarrot #4
Hello ;; I know this sounds cliche and the majority of people say this, but honestly it seriously gets better. I was exactly the same in Secondary School. I'm from England and i went to a horrendously dreadful school. If you're having problems just stick to your close friends and don't retaliate because then they have something to work from ^^
Sorry this advice isn't very good but honestly intelligence and beauty dont mean anything, that's just society ____ing your life up <3
<3<3<3 Just think of the magic spell, "I'll be Okay"
kaikan #5
*GLOMPS* NO YOU DON'T!!! I felt the same way when I was in high school and I almost did commit suicide. If it wasn't for my best friend to support me and help me learn to let the voices and thoughts of other slide off my back. People usually talk bad about others to cover their own insecurities or their own miserable lives. You have friends and people who care about you. You even have your online friends to help too!! Just know people care about you.
-OtpimusPrime #6
/glomps because I know how you feel. Don't ever think death is the only way out. You're worth so much more than you know.
partiallystars #7
thats really unfair. but if they're really bothering to make fun of you, it means that you have something that they dont. although that sounded cliche, its true. maybe, they're just waiting until you snap, because that's just how bullies are.
i hope you take care though. it'll die down eventually :)
swabluu #8
.-. That's still bullying...you need to report this to a teacher and make them stop >:
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