well as you guys know that my dad died today...my unnie told me that he said that he was sorry for not letting me go for my dream before, and he said that he was sorry for not telling me that he was sick of heart cancer,he also said that even if he's not here anymore,don't think that its your fault that this happened,the time you find out that im not here in this world anymore, please don't cry,i can't bare to see your cute pretty face cry,i want to tell you how happy i am to have you,your unnie and oppa...it was hard for me since you grew up without your umma,but i tried my best for you and your siblings, i very happy that you're fufilling your dream,im so proud of you,i love with you will all my heart sweety, don't think that iyou'll never see me again, im sorry that im leaving you so soon, i knwo that your unnie and oppa will be there with you..stay there in korea to fufill your dream, i know you'll still do your best even if me and your umma is not here,i love you soo much..take care, i know your unnie and oppa will be there for you, saranghaeyo nari ah!!

so im not going back to california, im gonna make my appa proud by fufilling my dream...saranghaeyo appa..<3