hey guys, im really sad since my unnie that lives in California with my appa just told me that my appa just died...whats worse it that i already lost my mom when i was young...i can't stop crying..im such a horrible daughter...i left california to go follow my dreams, but my dad was mad about it since he thought that i would probably not achieve it, but whats worse it that i ran away to go back to my hometown to live with my oppa before(and he's my brother NOT boyfreind)because i wanted to do what i wanted to do...i suddenly have the feeling that  this IS my fault...actaully it IS probably my fault...i don't know what to do noww.....should i go back to california and become a doctor or something or stay here in korea and acheive my dream??? ottoke??pls help mee??!!