It was love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight.

Vladimir Nobokov, Lolita

So I'm having one of those days where I am just full of Luhan feels and I don't quite know what to do with them or myself except to crawl into bed and flail for an hour or two.

Honestly, I love Luhan probably more than I can properly articulate. Every time I see him, my brain goes on a poetic tangent and I start describing him in convoluted prose in French, because clearly that is the only way to measure him. One of these days I think I'm going to go nuts and like write a sonnet or something about him. /headdesk

The magnitude of my love is not something physical in nature. He's far from my idea type which I have concluded is pretty much Taecyeon from 2PM. This is not a romantic love. This is the artist in me, in love with beautiful things, for in them, we find the grace of God and the proof that this world is worth living in. Oh look convoluted prose. The way I see Luhan is the way I view The Birth of Venus by William-Adolphe Bouguereau or Vorspiel by Richard Wagner or the words of Pablo Neruda. It is not just the image, the icon of him as a Cherub, tumbled out of one of Botticelli's exquisite masterpieces, but the colour of his eyes and the sweet orchestra of his voice and the idea of him that electrifies in me Erato and Polyhymnia, Melpomene and Calliope. Oh look yet more convoluted prose.

Luhan reminds me of my master's words: "I am thinking of aurochs and angels, the secret of durable pigments, prophetic sonnets, the refuge of art." He is art for me, simple as that. I find I can't describe what I feel properly, really. It's difficult to articulate the extent of my affection, because it's just that ridiculous now. He holds just a heavy piece of my heart. *sigh*

I want to write him, and paint him, and learn French as so I can weave the only words that can describe his majesty, charm, beauty and grace.

Noona is a little cray cray today. *sigh* I don't even know what I am talking about anymore. /facepalm

I just love Luhan a lot. ;A;