how long have we been like this?

i miss you badly,,,,do you know that? can you feel it?

college is taking it's toll on me..i have been into lots of everything

i wanted to drown  and busy myself with org works..get home from school late and exhausted...

but still you are here in my HEART and MIND making me reminisce our memories

and makes me want to cry my heart out every day and night...but i don't want others to see me weak

so i'm keeping a fake smile up my face and laugh with others even though my heart feels really heavy and sad

are we going to be okay really soon?

or are we gonna end up with nothing now?

am i expecting something that won't happen anymore? 

call me a martyr or whatever...but i'm telling you this.... I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

and i'm still hoping that you are too...

but just say the word "WE'RE OVER" and "LET'S JUST BE FRIENDS NOW" i promise you

i'll move on though it hurts but it doesn't matter anymore as long as we have ended and cleared everything between us..

and we have no bitterness for each other. that's all i want.