And so as my birthday is coming...as I came to think of all the time spent and wasted, of what has happened and what could have been...I came help but wonder if I have done the right things in my life. I know there are some wrong decisions somewhere, marked by emotions at the moment , too much thinking and then after careful deliberations, I still made the wrong one, listening to somebody's thoughts more than they self. It seems like I have so many regrets in life and wondered if I have to rearranged my life would I have done the same ???

But then as they said, everything  is said and done now, no use crying over a spilled milk. And to be and adult ,one has to take responsibility of your decisions ,of your mistakes. One mistakes cannot be corrected by another mistake.. You take the burnt, the consequences, the penalty for it. But trusting someone, is not always a guarantee.

I used to believe ,that you always deserved what you get. So if you are good to people,then they will be good to you too. But now I came to realized that it is not so. Treating them good is not a guarantee that they will treat you good in return.There will be people who will hurt you no matter what and how you feel. To them it is just a way of life,,,,one has to do it in order to survive.

And so now that I have learned the bitter truth, that nobody will be behind you through thick and thin except your family. They will accept you for who you are, with all your flaws,,,Friends will come and go in one's life but family stays with you forever...and after this I don't think that I can trust my heart for another friendship...The friends that I thought I have...are not there now. They do change through the years....

And so another year,,,another leaf, another chapter....the time spent is not even wasted for I have learned my lessons well...Things will be better cause now I know where I stand and know where I am heading.....and who I am gonna be with...with people who loves me true and appreciates me for who I am...and that is enough for me.