It's difficult...

It's difficult to always keep your heart on check. But if you don't you'd get hurt.

I don't want to. I know that loving entails risks and heartbreak and tears, but here I am falling in love, getting attached and dreading that time when I'm going to tear up once again.

The funny thing is that I'm the one who's on the look out for the heartbreak. I'm so paranoid of it that even though it might not be around, I already feel it. And all i can do is curl up on my own and cry. I'm the only one who knows and hears my heart breaking. And I'm the only cause of it, as well.

I don't know why I'm like this. I'd like to stop. But every time I get attached to someone, the fears resurface and I am drawn back to the darkness of my own making.

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kpopartory #1 Nov 28, 2010 20:35:29

*bear huggle* enjoy the moment you have with the person you love, look on the good side first, enjoy it, I know it's easy to be paranoid about this, I feel for you.

aethia321 #2 Nov 28, 2010 16:29:42

Dan.... *hugs tightly* Hehe, I know how you feel. It's really hard after your heart is hurt and broken once, you will feel paranoid from it. You've been there for me so much. I want you to know I will always be there for you. I wanna make a vow that I will never leave your life, you'll have to force me out. Hehe. You know I cried and pained from a friend, and you should know from that I actually appreciate all the friends that been there all along for me more, like you, andi and haneul, and ray. I always dunno the right words to say. But please don't draw back to your darkness. If you have to go, I'll go with you, and will support you to pull us both out, with all the friends welcoming us with open arms. Hwaiting Dan!! :D

From_With-Love #3 Nov 28, 2010 16:05:35

Awwwww <333333333333333 unnie don't worry because in the end, ur friends are here, to turn on the light in the dark room and shower it with confetti and love =D <33333333 and we'll do a suyin party XD XD <3333333<br />
so cheer up ne? <3 wubbb u !

daggerisms #4 Nov 28, 2010 15:49:31

Mi amiga. *huggles* Everyone's paranoid of getting their hearts broken. I know exactly how you feel. If you ever need to talk to anyone about anything, you know where my wall is, and you know I will listen.