I may look like I'm fine but it s all an act

I have friends to talk to

but not honestly speaking

I have a family

that I m not honestly happy

I can t bring myself to be...

Content

my parents love me 

but overall the truth is covered by pain

they fight and yell

I fight with my dad

that last for days even a week

it was 3 days before  my birthday

we got into a fight 

it was only because of my birthday we made up

my mom  acts like she s happy when honestly she s crying inside

it s depressing and irritating staying in a house all by yourself

my sister she s almost an adult 

we re not close anymore 

I like to keep to myself

I don t wanna ruin their lives even more with my attitude

it s better for all of us to keep me quiet

I haven t been happy in a long time since last summer

I saw my whole family 

in 8 years everything changes

it can t be helped

nothing will change that 

not even 2 months of time together

I hate how it all ended

time stopped with them

time worked again 

but even faster

i m afraid the memories will fade

not just in my mind but in others

I cry to try to let out all the pain I m dealing with

when I walk out of that door

I may look like I don t care or I don t feel like anything

but I refuse to act around others with my feelings or actions