So I have a bboyfriend his name is Ian. He really tall and sweet. He loves sta wars ad play magic the gathering. Yes I'm dating a nerd. He's also a junior and I'm a freshman. Hes an Eagle Scout and he. Is really awkward so hugging him is weird. He's awkward at school but sends me the sweetest texts, he is a totally different person when we text.

But I'm letting the wall around my heart down for him. And if he breaks my heart... I have to rebuild it and ill probably cry... Which I never do.

You see I'm not a very emotional person, I hate crying and yet at the same time I just want to feel normal. He makes my heart beat faster, my palms sweat and when he texts me It skips a beat. When I asked him out I was so nervous I was shaking and skipped out of class when he said yes,

I never get nervous when I ask someone out and I have never ever felt like this before...

so I need some advice....

what do all these feelings mean??