Innocence Torn - AKEWJRAL;EWRA WHAT

I'm writing, and I have like 5 pages down.

And I can't go on.

Like, I'm hesitating and posting this because I don't know if I am able of carrying this out. 

I know what's about to happen, I see Taemin doing this, but I can't write it down. Like I'm crying. I don' t want to break him down anymore. But it gets better right after this happens, I promise. 

I don't want to delete all the 5 pages, but I'm so unsure of whether or not I can carry this out.

I FEEL LIKE I NEED SOMEONE TO READ THIS OVER AND HONESTLY TELL ME IF THIS IS OKAY.

I FEEL SO UNSTABLE.

My lips are dry, my fingers are shaking, there are tears on my face, and it's hard to breathe.

WHAT THE HELL!? IT'S JUST A STORY. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. 

I don't know what to do. 

I'm just...staring at the words. It's FRUSTRATING because I know what to do, I know what to write, I know how to write, I just...it's all on pause. 

AND THIS ISN'T WRITER'S BLOCK, CAUSE I KNOW WHAT WRITER'S BLOCK IS. THIS IS WORSE. THIS IS...KNOWING HOW TO MAKE IT GO ON BUT BEING INCAPABLE OF...

It's like I have to mentally prepare myself for what's about to happen.

AND IT'S SAD CAUSE IT'S PROBABLY ONLY ONE SENTENCE. 

THIS ONE SENTENCE THAT MUST HAPPEN, unless I go back and delete all the five pages. And then...I don't know. 

/sounds insane

/sorry for the insane blog, I just..

 

TAEMIN WHAT DO I DO WITH YOU RIGHT NOW?!  

 

a lot of you ask how I write so 'well' and how I can provoke such feelings and all that stuff...this is how...I immerse myself into the world and I have to...I don't know...it's like you're being possessed.. 

 

(clears throat) Sorry for...that. I know it sounded dramatic. (pulls self together) Anywho. I hope the next update will be good. 

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chasethestars #1
Sometimes the only plausible solution to a dilemma such as yours is to write everything out regardless of the possible [self] conflicts that may arise, and then leave it alone once you're done. No, really. Because if you allow yourself to be influenced by high-running emotions at this point in writing, you won't be able to see the bigger picture clearly and possibly even miss out on other options you could have taken to make things in your story better.<br />
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So go on, just write out everything you have in mind. Then close your word processor, take a walk, have a snack, hang out with friends, watch a movie, do anything that will take your mind off of it. And when you feel ready to tackle it again, then go back. Updating can wait; I'm sure your readers are willing to wait anyway =3<br />
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[I'm sorry for butting in x_x Oh, and for the length of this comment as well u_u]
suzysaurus #2
no matter what you write, its always GOLD! :)
tkdstar123 #3
your story is too good to be "ruined" at this point...and knowing you, it'll probably be a great update no matter what...you should go with what you want, even if it hurts to read, because, that's what this is about...i bet you most of the subscribers subscribed because of your wonderfully angsty writing, i know i did, and i just can't get enough..update when you can (: we'll always support you and shinee<3
LoveLoveShells #4
is the sentence, <br />
Taemin died?<br />
otherwise, gogogo!<br />
i'll read it if you want. <br />
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