author's note: lol... i didnt know that writing blogs could be addicting...

i was searching for some Sifany drafts on my laptop when i accidentally opened another taeteuk story. well, this is the one that i included on my voting poll but it didnt reach a number of votes and i was practically wracking my brains for this kk. just want to share a little part of the drafts and the summary.

the title is love letter. its inspired from FT island's love letter about star crossed lovers who were forbidden to love or have to end their love because of some circumstances. 

the first draft is the recent one, when leeteuk recovered his memory. the second draft is the past when the two shared a relationship. i hope i dont confuse, kk. 

sorry for the draft bits. its really pieces of the story that i didnt get to finish but just want to share. ^_^  

summary:

she’s falling for him…. And it’s against the rules.

Kim taeyeon, known in the palace as B17, has what it takes to be the nation’s ideal body guard: she has skills, the brain, the perfect factor x and certain cunningness that not even a man cannot compare himself to. Born under the Kim Family of top performing bodyguards, she was the King’s favorite protector. All her life she had been trained to protect the monarch until an unexpected moment hit the royal family causing her to change course. The king’s son, the crown prince Leeteuk, had been ambushed via a car accident making him lose his memory. To protect the heir to the throne, the king had no choice but to hide his son from the glitz of the royal world and taeyeon has to play a role she will not surely forget: to act as his wife and to protect him from the dangers surrounding their vicinity. Taeyeon, being one of the strictest when it comes to relationship matters had no choice but to follow the orders. 

draft 1

a.n.: bits from the chapter when leeteuk recovered his memory.

I have loved you

but I still love you.

Kim taeyeon probably had the longest gaze towards the person she had always thought she treasured the most.

“b17.”

Taeyeon suddenly stopped upon seeing a hand waving a few inches off her face.

Tiffany.

“what?” she asked, in a manner of irritation. She had tried not to take her eyes off her man. Not once, not twice. It could only be the next thing that she can like touch him. It was really sad that he couldn’t even remember who she was.

Nor the memory they have shared together.

Taeyeon looked at tiffany.

“wae, are you going to cry?”

taeyeon diverted her gaze away, with tears suddenly trickling down on her beautiful yet agonized face.

“I just cant forget him.”

draft 2

a.n.: when taeyeon had to play a part as leeteuk's wife, ergo, when leeteuk had amnesia

“he is now awake.”

Kim taeyeon turned around and thought the world had stopped when the head nurse approached her.

When she reached his room, the crown prince was there, all seated, hands on his lap, staring at the television with utmost curiosity and flipped only his head when she approached him, trying to hide her emotions mixed with nervousness and uneasiness.

“you’ve awakened.” Was the words she could muster. It was really peculiar to her to address the prince in such an informal manner, but she had no choice but to act the part and pretend that she was glad that he was alive. Yes she was glad, it will mean that the monarchy will continue to reign after all.

But she was not really used to act the part.

To act as his wife.

Leeteuk’s eyebrows form into a frown.

“do I know you?”

Of course you know me, taeyeon thought.

“yes of course.” She said. realizing that she was standing too straight, she tried to crouch a little, enough for him to see her as a normal person. “I am taeyeon. I’m... i'm your wife.”

This was the words that sent her stomach to rumble but leeteuk just sat looking at her. did he already regain his memory, being calm in a situation like that? no. the doctor even said that he really had a massive concussion.

“you are my wife.” He repeated, not in a questioning way but in a form of getting assurance.

“yes.”

“what happened to me?” he then started asking her.  for once taeyeon had noticed a sense of normalcy surrounding the crown prince. With an amnesia, he looked almost entirely normal, like an ordinary person.

Taeyeon began to blabber words, telling him that he had the accident when he rode a bike to fetch her at the store. Instead of telling him that a group of unknown men had tried to kill him, taeyeon told him that he was hit by a truck on the cross road.

Leeteuk nodded and tried to digest the details one by one. Within awkward minutes of being silent, he looked at her.

“I am sorry that I lost everything I can remember.” He said to her. he began to touch his head, the ache that was lingering really took an ample time for him to concentrate.

Taeyeon saw this and she retorted.

“please rest your maj--- I mean, leeteuk.” She said, placing both of her hands on his shoulders so he could recline his body on the bed. The touching sensation almost caused her arms to tingle. She was not used to this. No one was even allowed to touch the crown prince.

Can I still do this? She thought. it could be nerve wrecking. the lies could haunt her for life. 

“I need sleep.” Leeteuk said.

“I will leave you then.” Taeyeon said. she was irking to be outside, to let out a huge deal of breath and to drink coffee, to devise a way of how she would leave the next days living with him. When she was about to leave, leeteuk caught her wrist.

“yes?” she asked.

“why are you going out?” he asked innocently.

“you said you need rest.”

“aren’t you suppose to be with me?” he said in a manner of tone that looked like he needed her. he flustered, thinking that it was too tense. “I mean, you are my wife after all.”

“oh.” Taeyeon thought she had lost the momentum for this. “okay then.”

She sat on the couch next to his bed.

This will be a long journey.

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“what did you tell him?”

“how was your first night?”

“relax.” Taeyeon said, putting her index finger to her lips as her co-body guards Hyoyeon and Sooyoung began to fill her brain with questions.

“taeyeon?”

Sooyoung and hyoyeon stood up when leeteuk entered the kitchen area. When they were about to bow, taeyeon pulled their clothes.

“ow.”

“don’t bow to him!” she hissed.

“taeyeon.” Leeteuk said. he noticed that there were two women with her. “oh, you’re with friends?”

“how was your sleep?” taeyeon asked, diverting the attention.

“I woke up and you weren’t there so I looked for you.” He said, causing her to blush and hyoyeon and sooyoung tried to hide in their giggles. A prince talking about searching for a woman was like a finding a rare jewelry.

“this is sooyoung and hyoyeon, they’re my bestfriends.” She said, pinching sooyoung. “I don’t know if you could still remember them.”

“I wish I could.” Leeteuk bit his lip and approached their area. he stood there blinking like an innocent child.

“aren’t you taking a seat?” taeyeon asked.

Leeteuk pulled in a chair behind taeyeon. “well you have to sit first, right?” he asked. Taeyeon looked at him aghast. “why?”

“How is it that some of his royalty customs had remained intact like instincts?” hyoyeon whispered.

Taeyeon shrugged and sat down.

“um… you want to have a snack?” she pointed to bowls of fruits and a bowl of melted chocolate at the table. leeteuk nodded and looked at the food like a prey.

“I think I want that.” he forked in a slice of apple which everyone knew was his favorite back at the palace. Sooyoung and hyoyeon were just looking at him as if he was a piece of television.

“girls, eat too.” he said.

“oh, yeah.” Sooyoung continued to help herself with the bowl of oranges, acting as if nothing had happened. Hyoyeon followed, dipping in a slice of apple at the chocolate bowl.

“taeyeon, here.” he said, offering the apple. “you eat.”

“aigoo.” Taeyeon said. “this is for me?” leeteuk nodded and edged her to take a bite.

“aiyoo, I feel like I want to get married.” Hyoyeon gushed. Taeyeon rolled her eyes and secretly hit her at the shin. “ouch.”

“thank you.” Taeyeon told leeteuk who resumed eating with another slice of apple.