Finally... After... How many years? ... 3 years? I finally fell for a guy... I blush when I glance at him from the corner of my eyes and sometimes giggle like a crazy woman just thinking about him... My heart was beating so fast when you patted and ruffled my hair.. I felt electric shock run through my body... But...Guess what .. He's moving to Korea soon... Not bragging... But he got accepted to some companies there and become a trainee... I guess I just have to embrace this feeling and hide it alone... I need to back off from his dreams and life... But I can't help to feel like my heart exploded... Tears falling out of control ...This hurt so much... After so many years of healing from the first heart breaking relationship, I finally got the courage to fall for another guy... And yet... God loves playing game with me... I might look strong on the outside, but you don't know how hurt I am to say to 'goodbye and congrates' I guess im just selfish ... Wanting you to stay right here with me... But I know better... I can't hold on to you forever... Our destiny was to meet each other and that's it... So in the end G.na unnie's song came in the picture... 'I'll back off so you can live better' Can't get this song outta my life i guess... I don't know what to write really... But right now I can't sleep... So I decided to vent my feelings here... Wish I can stop the thinking and just let it go >.< wish me good luck? :)