A LETTER FROM A FANGIRL

(cr. Rightful owner)

Think of your bias while reading this.. Since my bias is Sehun.. He is the one I'm talking here..

I brushed my long black hair and then put the hood over my head. I'm finally doing it. I finally found the courage to do this. Never in my years of being a fan, would I ever think I'd have the guts to do it; send a fan letter. I put on my sneakers and made my way towards their dorm. It was a long walk, but it would be worth it. Maybe it could give my time to talk myself out of it. But when I reached the front door of the Exo dorm, I realized it was too late to back out now. I slowly walked up the steps and stared at the glass door. I pulled the letter out of my pocket and stared at it. I kissed it once, taped the back and stuck it on the door. I sighed once before turning on my heels to leave. I froze when I saw a familiar black van pull in. He's not supposed to see me. He can't...

A man I recognized as their manager.

“Hey! What are you doing here?! I thought I shooed the sasaeng fans away this morning!” he yelled, and strode over to me.

I just kept quiet, staring as the boys piled out one by one, looking as beautiful as ever.

“Yah, I'm talking to you.” their manager said again.

“Hyung, leave her alone. It looks like she was just leaving anyways.” Baekhyun said.

That's when I saw him. Him.

A tear slid down on my cheeks as I quickly started to walk home.



“That was weird...” Chanyeol muttered.

“Aw, she was crying. Hyung! Look at what you did!” D.O said.

“I'm just so sick of these crazy fans.”

"This popularity of ours." Baekyun whispered as he got his bag out of the trunk.

“But she wasn't a crazy fan. She didn't even scream when she saw us.” Suho pointed out.

“Hey Se Hun-ah, you have a letter. I think it's from her.” Kai said and peeled the letter off of the door. He gave it to Se Hun before walking inside and running into his shared bedroom with Baekhyun and Chanyeol to sleep before their next schedule.

“Oh cool. She was my fan?” Se Hun asked himself as he slumped on the couch to read it. Once he opened it, his eyes widened as he stared at it.

“Su Ho hyung...”

“Hmm?”

“Can you help me read this? It's in English. Translate it for me.”

Su Ho sat down next to him and started to read it.

“Dear Oh Se Hun , I don't know what made me write this because I know you probably won't read it. I mean, you get hundreds, maybe thousands of these everyday. That's just how amazing you are. But I guess it's that little hope that makes me write. This will probably just add to the pile of love letters you get daily. I'm no different, I'm just a fan.

We've met before at a fansigning. You don't remember me right? I don't expect you to. You have so many fans that adore you just as much as I do. I'll be going to your next event. You won't even know it's me, but that's how it should be right? I don't expect you to write back either since I won't be putting an address on here. I'll be lucky enough if you open it and not even read it since I wrote this in English. Why? Because a part of me hopes you won't read it and know about this fantasy of mine.

Is it possible to fall in love with someone behind a television screen? You must be laughing right now. How can a normal fan be this deeply in love with an idol? You don't even know me, my name, what I look like, or my hobbies. But that's okay. Cause I know you.

If I had to list the reasons why I love you, it could go on for miles.

The way your lips curl into that rare, but perfect smile.

The way you stare blankly out a window when others are talking.

The way your tongue slowly becomes visible when your concentrated to impress us.

The way you know how to get serious when you need to.

The way your fingers strum that guitar so delicately like you're scared you're going to break it.

The way you stare at us with those eyes of yours, causing me to get lost in them.

The way you sing so beautifully even though you're a visual.

The way you get on that stage and be....well, perfect.

Do you even know how talented you are at singing and dancing?

I swoon at every note, move, and turn.

Your laugh makes my heart melt a little every time I hear it.

Even if I hear your name, a smile creeps to my face. You have that affect on me.

Everything about you, your voice, face, hair, body, it makes me fall for you more and more.

But I know you will only be in my dreams, since I'm just a fan. Just another face in the crowd of people that love you.

Continue what you do, because if you leave, I don't know what I'd do with myself.

Am I pathetic for loving someone like you?

I don't know.

But all I know is that with every breath you take, it makes me fall deeper.

And that is just another reason on my long list of things that makes me love you.

Love, Just Another Fangirl.” Su Ho finished.

Se Hun just sat there, staring at the ground. Taking in those words one by one.

“Wow...I wish I had a fan this passionate.” Su Ho commented.

Se Hun started to cry. He didn't know how he was feeling at the moment so he just cried. He grabbed the letter out of Su Ho's hands and stared at it. Reading it over and over again, even if he didn't know half of the words on it.

“What are you thinking?” D.O asked.

“I'm going to find her. No matter what, I will find her.”

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"I'm just a fan, an ordinary fan"

This is the dream of every fangirl out there. Am I right? I am cryiiing~ ;_; 

it was actually from a story here, t'was featured before. and I just saw it somehwere else. To the writer, whoever you are...well I salute youuuu~ Huhuhu~ forgive me for reposting this ;_;