The reason why I'm so sensitive
Usually does things don't affect me that much but it hurts when you realise that the place you thought you belong to is just a ilussion.
I've always been an outsider . Everyone knew me as the child who had to grow up faster, who had to accept the fact that she doesn't have a father , that all her friends were fake , who had to support her mother that had big debts , the child who had to view the world with different eyes.
My mom was 15 years older than my father and she was his teacher. His mother didn't accept their love so they married in secret . Me and my father weren't close so when he died I wasn't that affected. Because I kinda look like my father my grandmother began to "love"me and she doesn't call me Maria she calls me John ( my father's name) .
My mom had to raise me alone . It was hard but she always gave me everything I needed . When I changed school I thought "This is were I truely belong" . I had this illusion for 3 years only to find out I was wrong . Only when my "best friends " turned their back on me and my old "friends"did the same I realised I lived in a lie.
It's a harsh reality but like always, I have to stand up and make everything just an ugly memory and live my life, right?
P.S. : I want to thank everyone for their support . You are the most awesome people I've met in my life !
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