Aigoo. 

Am I being self-centered again?

Aish.

I'm so frustrated with myself.

I want to cry, I want to shout...

I want to...

Shut up. First of all, look at how they welcome you. See? They like you so much. You're being too selfish again. Why do you think they're leaving you out? They include you in games. They even send you messages. Do you think they leave you out? NO! They're new family!

Aish. I shake my head in confusion. This voice has a point.

I just being too selfish again. 

I'm weird, aren't I?

I'm abnormal. I get friendly with people, but if they don't approach me back, then I'll ignore them.

What kind of person does that?

I don't know how to help people. Sometimes, I don't even know what to advice to them already.

I'm crazy.

I was never normal for being this envious. For being this selfish.

I want to punch myself in the gut.

AAAAHHHHHH.

Maybe if I wasn't even born, I wouldn't be a nuisance to others.

Don't say that. You are a gift of God, you know? You were born for a reason. There's a reason why you're living right now. You just don't know that. Only God does.

I hope.

I just hope.