OLD TITLE: Dump of My Old Wall Messages and Opinions no one asked for

ALT TITLE: USER INAMOKA'S WALL THAT SHE DELETED BECAUSE HE REALIZED THAT SHE TALKS TOO MUCH

ALT TITLE (1): GANSAN PRACTICING TRANSPARENCY SO YOU CAN CLOWN HER IF HE DOES HYPOCRITICAL

Dec 30, 2022

Honestly? I'm real sad about the granting requests fic.

At first, I just wanted a challenge and people to give their ideas and be like a good vibe type of Santa. It helps me too since I can work on quick writing exercises. The thing is, I'm the type of person to not let things bother me for more than three days. Whenever I'm still bothered by it on the fourth day, I take action on what I think causes the problem. I told myself that it might be my schedule being impossible to follow for the upcoming semester but here I am -fifth day- still bothered. I reconsidered everything again and realized that the granting requests fic has been bothering me ever since a lot of people subbed.

Three reasons:
1. A lot of subs but few requests when it was OPEN.
2. People started requesting when it was PENDING.
3. My terms were not read first by some.

At first I was worried I wasn't getting messages or seeing people request because I had a lot of people subbing and then only few requested. I was transparent with it but just told myself they must be shy or not sociable type of readers so I didn't press on and respected their decision. Then I accept more requests and enjoyed the feedback (really makes my day, a simple AWWW or anything makes me giddy already). The times wherein I needed to change the status, I made sure to do so in the title and author's notes. That's why it really felt disrespectful to me as a writer asking for requests to grant FOR FREE to have my terms be disrespected.

I actually chose this platform more than the rest because I felt more secure here (there are mechanics that avoid certain things). To maintain that security, I remained transparent and set boundaries. I know disrespect is inevitable and sometimes not intended but that does not make it less real. Hence, my decision to close that fic. Please be respectful to everyone and be self-aware, next time. Thank you.

Dec 29, 2022

I took it all back (the schedules lol) I will disappear for 4 months and come back with sudden jumpscare updates. I'll also try to finish publishing dyr and the requests before disappearing.

Dec 21, 2022 

Not me spending half my afternoon making a personal essay to just delete it LMAO also the prev post I deleted because I'm not gonna do it anymore or might reconsider. But the main message of that was the things I already say and the main hidden messages of each fic I wrote so far. Let me summarize in three:

1. Mamamoo aren't just artists . They are also human. They have feelings, they have things out of their control, they are susceptible to pain and being misunderstood. They are PEOPLE FIRST before they were mamamoo.
2. We are fans. We have this responsibility to be aware of what we do and maintain safe boundaries. As much as we feel connected with MMM, we aren't their personal besties so let's know our place.
3. Despite just being fans, we can still have our own personal connection to the art Mamamoo releases. We can feel special in that way but we need to remember that their main discography is about breaking norms and risking being hated because ultimately, we should love ourselves for who we are. We can be so caught up with fan stuff that we don't take the time to actualize this even if we know. So please, if you can and you are ready to, you should also take breaks and just be you.

Dec 18, 2022

uhmm also... with the stories i write yall should keep in mind theys fiction and stays fictional (im pretty sure most of you know this but just a friendly reminder). The reason I always make aus instead of making the characters like the real ones is to keep that line/parameter/boundary and distance from real people and characters.
if reading fanfic of real people or reading fanfic in general is not your thing, why are you here lmao no one's forcing you and if it makes you uncomfortable, leave. dont make people who enjoy these and dont bring real world harm (at least maintain that boundary) feel bad for enjoying things or wanting some escapism or whatever have you.

remember that we can subconsciously or unintentionally intertwine imagination, fiction, and creative abstractness with our reality and this may become dangerous so please be careful with the media you consume and be knowledgeable of your own actions and how people might receive them. It's okay to be wrong, it's okay to make mistakes, just keep working on doing things your future self will be thankful for.

Dec 15, 2022

idk who will see this but i really appreciate upvotes, subscriptions and the lone comment i got. i didnt expect any of those since they werent why i wrote and published stories. i wrote the stories for myself (not just for self expression and to feel better) because i wanted to practice creative fiction writing again. the reason i did publish em were because someone on twitter wanted to see em and i was like aight i dont wanna be an and not deliver after piquing their interest (i aint blaming them btw) so when i did publicize these two (of many) fics ive written, all i had in mind was that i got someone curious so i shouldnt be rude and leave them hoping on an empty promise. ngl, i dont regret doing so.

thats why the little things i didnt ask for* such as people upvoting subbing commenting or whatever, kinda makes my heart warmer. perfect for winter too.

*except the subscription for angst because i didnt want to mark it M since people might interpret that differently but i wanted to warn and give some sort of informed consent for it will be a dark possibly triggering story

so yeah lmao whoever sees this dont feel obliged to subscribe upvote comment or whatever. thats not why i said this, i just wanted to show my appreciation. all i ask is yalls to take care of yourselves.

I yapped a lot lmao I edited this too because the original one kinda sounded off-putting, awkward and weird to me. Which was NOT WHAT I INTENDED.

(I do edit and back track a lot because I am aware I can be easily misinterpreted)

Dec 7, 2022

hello please be nice im brittle and fragile (also sleep properly because I know yall read fics as a bed time story and bed time is not 4am)