Hi whoever reads these not that anyone does...

Its been a long time since i wrote a blog or updated a story..since 2019 i think, so 3 years. I said i would continue where i left off as i was in a better position at that point, with my job, being a parent, and my new place..but then the pandemic happened. things went south, depression is a hard thing... i bounce back then fall deeper sometimes..but i'm okay now, im slowly getting everything back on track.

I hate not finishing the stories i had set out to do..although considering how things have changed over the years with scandals and such (were talking major scandals like SA, not dating or marriage scandals those are normal life experiences) something i wanted to write or had written on paper for certain members of groups  (i.e. Kris & himchan) im debating whether to still include them..although i mean fanfiction to me is purely imaginary, it has no basis on what these people are really like its not real and i dont view it as such.. however i understand for example having kris in a exo related story (even if its based in 2013) maybe a little difficult for people to read, even though its somewhat necessary to the story contextual wise, so if i do decide to post them people can ignore if necessary i dont mind honestly.

In saying that Yoochun related content will stay as it is cause well they were written before whatever messy life he began to lead (i mean they were mainly written early on back in my 2008-2010 days of kpop then uploaded here) so theyre nostlagic of what was back then and some of the only ones i managed to finish. (also he stopped being a bias in 2010 if i truly honest, so i remember him as he was not as he is..)

Although these are just stories, idols as chracters with my own creative narrative, its always been like casting a idol as role in my fanfic screenplay, with things drawn from my own real life experiences on a occasion, hence i dont do 'your name' fanfic or requests, i rather create a OC and read and see through their eyes in first person or third person narrative generally..thats the only way i can write too.

I dont even know what I'm rambling about now lol

But every year I've thought about writing again..but never get round to it. I'm not sure whats holding me back really, i mean i dont read them much anymore either and they have some great writers here that i'd love to read again and find new things. I still listen to kpop thats never stopped, occasionally i get that feeling where i wanna write a story or a for a particular member cause i have a great scenario in my head..

Thats the reason why i probably logged into today....Cause..you know..TEN... thats all that needs to be said.. i'll look for some things to read later lol

But seriously its been hard for me to really get into that writer mentality with everything that has happened to me in the past couple years... so i guess its baby steps from here on out.

And this is first step, making a blog that not many people will care about as im pretty those subscribed to my stories have surely moved on and grow up just like me, if there are still users that loved my stories thank you for reading them and enjoying them, i wish to conitnue where i left off sorry for making you wait.

Imagine ive been on this site for 12 years...it's insane but also upsetting that i didnt finished i wanted to...but i still have time to do so.

I wish everyone good luck with everything in their lives, and coldolences to those of you who have lost someone. The world is a mess there are many difficult things happening all around the world. this place is safe escape for some, but let's try not to get lost okay?

I'll be around...

~{xxxKissTheAngelxxx}~ aka Mel

~Always Keep The Faith~