HII PEOPLE! I'm back with another blog post. Well... my love life failed, so it's now byebye ing bastard for me! And now I'm back! :) I've been really bored about writing and I was so lazy that I didn't even write anything since 2012 starts. Yes, I know... i'm sooooo lazy :(

Anyways, some of you guys know that I've been writing songs and stuffs and some of you don't. Well, I WROTE SONGS :) Remember that I said I wanted to write a song about JunHyung? Yeah, that didn't work out as much as I wanted it to be. I love writing songs but never managed to finish them because I always get stuck or because the lack of inspirations. I hated that but it always happens.  The last 'full' song that I wrote, with melody and lyrics was 3 years ago, when I was 15 O___O talk about long time.

I'm someone who is very logical when it comes to love problems. Having to experience heartbreaks and seeing my friends having to deal with jerks and all those stuffs, I know better not to let anyone hurt me like how guys hurt my friends. But everything changed when it comes to my last relationship. I changed, I became the jealous type, I was so insecure and I let him hurt me. I was so disappointed in myself and I felt stupid and pathetic. I tried hard, I did everything I could to save the thing between us but in the end, he chose to go back to his ex girlfriend. And the most pathetic thing was, I was still really nice about it. I told him that because I loved him, I wanted him to be happy. I'm really nice, as in really really nice. I couldn't be selfish, I couldn't make a big deal out of it and just yell at him and hate him. I couldn't. All i did was cry. Everyone tells me he's a jerk, but to me, he's not. He's just someone I like and couldn't return my feelings. I actually didn't blame him for that. I'm more mature beyond my age and I have a different point of view in things. I understand people more, so it was okay. But throughout these few weeks of waiting, feeling insecure, crying, being so tired and other things, I realized that even someone who is logical and strong like me, can also change because of love.

Another example is my bestest friend. She's always the strong one. The one who is very independant and who knows what she's doing, who is very logical, she's now struggling because her ex boyfriend found another girl. They've been through alot and even talked about getting married in the future. Everything was planned out. Even when they broke up, they still love each other. But then a girl came and it ruined everything. She couldn't sleep at night and even when she did, she cried herself to sleep. She even cried herself awake. She couldn't eat and it made her threw up. She's now 38kg, which is already underweight. And now, she's in Singapore with the boy. She did all research to go to SG to study before all of this happen and she didn't have anywhere else to go. The boy actually asked her nicely to move because his 'girlfriend' didn't like it. But she stayed there anyway. Even when she's living with him, she still feels dead inside. I chatted with her everyday to make sure she's okay. She said that the feeling is eating her inside, because she loved him so much. Even though he's beside her, he's not with her. She said it hurts but she didn't want to let go. She keeps thinking and it's going to ruin her future and even ruin her.

CONCLUSION: LOVE CHANGE EVEN PEOPLE WHO ARE STRONG!

Anyways, after experience so much in this past few weeks, about love and boys and stupid bastards :) yeah... I came up with an idea of writing a song. I'm not sure whether it's gonna be a chinese song or an english song  though. I find writing songs in english is hard, not sure why, but I never really wrote them in english. My last song was also in Chinese. Anyways... back to the song. I wanted to write something to girls all over the world, about break ups, waiting, heartbreaks and all those things. I want to tell the girls that it's okay to cry. When everything changes and they're no longer happy in a relationship, it's okay to let go. I wanted to tell them not to hurt themselves anymore, not to let any boy ruin them, to be strong.

Something like that.  I'll probably write songs about what to say to all the guys out there.

So, here's the thing. NEED HELP, as always :)

1. Write down the things you wanted to say to girls out there.
2. Write down the things you wanted to say to guys.

You can write about anything, no limits :)